Im two days from being 42 weeks. No NST or ultrasounds yet, my midwife is being very mellow about all of it, and I haven't heard from her in days which bothers me a bit. I dosed myself with some castor oil today. 2tblsp at 3pm and then 2 more at 9pm. It hasn't cause me to have any bm's yet but I feel my uterus getting a little "squeezy" and mildy painful. I don't know what her plan is if I go over 42 weeks, I have an ultrasound at some point with her backup OBGYN but I haven't been given a date. The baby is still definantly moving but has quited down in the last few days which means I am poking at my belly for a response a lot. I am really hoping to go into labor tonight, but I feel a little hopeless at this point. Logically I know that women have normal births at 42+ weeks, but I know at 38 weeks my midwife said the baby was somewhere around 8.5 pounds and she has grown since then. What makes matters worse is that I had my husband start his 2 weeks vacation last Tuesday thinking I would go any day, and the longer this bambino holds out the less time he has at home with me after she is born. We are paid up with the midwife and I feel like if I run off to the hospital now we will owe another 400 dollars that we wouldn't have to pay otherwise. I wouldn't mind it at all if it was medically necessary to do so, but at this point it feels a little premature to do that. I started care with my MW at 34 weeks and still paid the full price so I really don't want to abandon my homebirth for anything but a medically necessary transfer but its getting so hard to wait. Also she is set to be moving across the state in 2 weeks so I feel the time pressure from that too. Add all of that to the fact that we get at least 5 phone calls a day from family and friends, and my mom has sent her friend to drive by my house to see if the midwife is here and we just haven't told her, I'm starting to feel just a little bit frantic to have this baby out.
