Too Tired to Fight It

[ekblad9]

Well, I was determined to fight off PPD this time. I take TONS of fish oil, have a special herbal tea I've been drinking since early pregnancy, but I'm really just too tired to fight it. I'm depressed. Not as bad as it has been a couple of times but I just feel - defeated. I really don't plan to take meds this time. I have needed them in the past but don't feel it's *that* bad yet. I'm just tired from caring for kids and the baby. I can't fight this too. I feel like a loser. My dh is gone camping this weekend with our boys. Maybe that's part of it. IDK. I do know I'm traveling a road I don't want to be on. I thought I could win this time. I was wrong.

[happyhippimama]

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Hang in there. You can do it. Have you talked to anyone about how you are feeling? ANYONE. I have found great support online. Here. And another board that I am on. It has really helped me to chat with other ppd mama's via the boards. Just to let it out sometimes.

Don't give up on meds. If they worked before, they will probably work again. It is really best to tackle the PPD as soon as possible. I hope you find peace, mama.

[goodygumdrops]

I'll have to agree with the pp. I think it's better to treat yourself before it gets really bad. I know it can be hard to admit to ourselves that something is out of our control but this is the reality with ppd. It's hormonal. Even if you try to prevent it, unfortunately, your body chemistry changes dramatically through pregnancy. Don't feel like a loser because it's not your fault. Love yourself and nurture yourself.

I really hope your feeling better soon.

[mom0810]

Feeling like a failure is the ppd. You are doing awesome by recognizing it now. I agree, intervening with meds is not a failure, it is a proactive step you can take to get better.