thanks, ladies. it wasn't easy to decide this, as i'm aching terribly for another, but really, it's what is best for right now. i just feel like it wouldn't be responsible of use to ttc when we are in a state of flux and are unsure of what our next move will be on a financial (not to mention insurance) level.
on the bright side, dd will have some extra time to have our attention, and end up being more able to help (if she wants) when the new baby does arrive. dh and i will get a little alone time as well in between the two kids, as dd is more amenable to having a family member watch her while we go and have date night. and, date night usually includes a drink or two- not something we could do while i was pg.
i hope to come back to this thread soon, and i hope to not see any of you!!
(you'll all be in ddc's by then, you know)