My son turned one year old on August 8th and I spent my whole pregnancy worrying about him, then afterwards developed a severe PPOCD/PPP case.
Now, over a year later, I still have the OCD symptoms. I see the word "cancer" in my head frequently (because it is my worst fear, I think), Iam constantly paranoid, etc.
I was wondering - Is anyone else STILL experiencing Post Partum issues over a year later?
Yes, I take medication and go to therapy.
Also, I always wanted a son, I finally got a son, and now... still... I worry- "will he be mean because he's a bpoy?" "Can I actually raise a BOY?" AND the delusional thoughts, such as, "Can boys REALLY come out of girls? How does that work? Is he normal?"
Also, I will think, "Maybe I should have had an abortion because what if he just grows up to hate his life/kill me/hate me?" etc..... I'M NUTS.
... Also, I will note that i am diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder, so perhaps that is why I still think crazy sh*t about my son that I love more than anything.
So anyone else experienced long-term PPD/PPP/PPOCD???? or is it just because I'm insane?
Now, over a year later, I still have the OCD symptoms. I see the word "cancer" in my head frequently (because it is my worst fear, I think), Iam constantly paranoid, etc.
I was wondering - Is anyone else STILL experiencing Post Partum issues over a year later?
Yes, I take medication and go to therapy.
Also, I always wanted a son, I finally got a son, and now... still... I worry- "will he be mean because he's a bpoy?" "Can I actually raise a BOY?" AND the delusional thoughts, such as, "Can boys REALLY come out of girls? How does that work? Is he normal?"
Also, I will think, "Maybe I should have had an abortion because what if he just grows up to hate his life/kill me/hate me?" etc..... I'M NUTS.
... Also, I will note that i am diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder, so perhaps that is why I still think crazy sh*t about my son that I love more than anything.
So anyone else experienced long-term PPD/PPP/PPOCD???? or is it just because I'm insane?
I'm right there w/you. My youngest is nearly 15mo and I'm still dealing w/severe ppd (after having dealt w/ppp for months after her birth) even now.
Like you..I'm on meds and going to therapy. It just seems to be taking SO LONG to even be moving in the right direction let alone getting better!! Just wanted you to know you are certainly not alone. 
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