I'm so sorry to PleasentlyFurious and Carmen.
It's just not fair.
I'm 18 1/2 weeks now. Starting to show just a little, but not so much that I don't fit into my clothes. Still 10 pounds under my start weight, but the doctor hasn't said anything about it yet. 1 week till I find out the sex. XP is still deciding whether or not she will be in the baby's life at all. I think it's really crappy that she could stick me with all of the responsibility of this with no support - emotional or financial - whatsoever. I had a terrible day yesterday sitting down and looking over my finances. It's the first time the shock of the break up wasn't so strong so I could focus on the reality. The reality is not so good. I may have to move in with my parents which means moving out of the very liberal city I love. I can't believe XP could do this to me. I still don't think she understands the gravity of the situation. Right now she owes me $500 for bills and doesn't have it. Five weeks ago I wrote her new girlfriend a short letter - never got a response. Yesterday I emailed her basically saying I was not trying to get XP back, and I hoped we could all be friends. No response yet. I will invite them both to dinner in a few weeks and if she refuses to attend (three strikes she's out!), I will know she is a royal b----, and XP has made a horrible hasty decision. I think XP is not allowed to talk to me because I only get short texts from her when her new girlfriend is not around.
Anyway, I'm hoping that knowing the sex of the baby will help me be happier about being pregnant. I'm dreading going to the ultrasound alone, but all my friends work during the day, so it looks like I will be on my own for this. Sorry this all sounds so gloomy. I am feeling better, just very dissapointed in XP.