Rochelle, I'm so, so sorry. Don't make any decisions at this point about the future - it's hard to be objective. Just give yourself time & be gentle with yourself. As much time as you & your DH need.
I've not gone through labor before, but I do know a lot of pain. There is a huge difference between sudden unexepected "artificial" pain in the ER (i.e., brought on by a sudden, unplanned medical procedure), which is accompanied by severe stress and the fear of the unknown as opposed to "natural" pain (i.e., letting your body do what it needs to). If you are prepared for something, and have spent a lot of time thinking about it, and WANT to do it, it makes a huge difference in your ability to handle the pain. At least from my previous experiences.
No one can say what is right for you - but there are drugs for labor, which you can always consider too. It's a personal choice, but it is there.
Be gentle with yourself.