Friend's Suicide and Baggage

[eastkygal]

My dear friend committed suicide on Friday evening. Nobody knows why, and we are devastated. It had been some months since I had seen him, for I hadn't lived close until recently. I am grieving and questioning, and praying for his family and their needs.

I had to call a friend whom I probably haven't spoken to in 9 years at least to tell her of our friend's death. We were best friends for many many years, and she suddenly didn't want to talk to me anymore (when we were in college). There was no fight or explanation, just ignoring. I knew she would want to know as she loved this friend as much as I did, and they were very close at one time (even talked marriage). I don't know what I expected from the phone call, but it was cold. She was very appreciative and really wanted to know about our friend, and I guess that is all I can expect.

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty low and at a loss right now. I'm feeling regretful kind of too, and I don't want to. It makes no sense at all how the faces that surrounded us in childhood, who we loved so dearly can act in and be so different from the way we dreamed of together. Is not childhood the essence of us all?

[Bestbirths]

I am sorry for the loss of your friend and also that the phone call to your old friend didn't go so well.

[partymoo]

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[shayinme]

So sorry for your loss.

Shay