The OCTOBER Infertility ONE Thread! - Page 9

[Lola88]

Originally Posted by wtg4miracle

OMG poetgirl you did the egg thing! I thought of this but dh so no way. How did it go. Please do not get an infection from this.

Are y'all talking about DH blowing the egg whites? I've read about this, and just wondered if that's what you're referring to......

[wtg4miracle]

Originally Posted by Lola88

Are y'all talking about DH blowing the egg whites? I've read about this, and just wondered if that's what you're referring to......

I think she is talking about using real eggs and taking out the white part and using it as ewcm. I read somewhere that some gals have actually done this. I really thought of doing this.

[Lola88]

hmmm.............

I have another question....sorry, I am kinda naive on some of this stuff, BUT if I took my trigger shot 8 days ago on CD12, and today is CD20, is it normal for me to have ewcm today?

[crystal-mommy]

G/l to all that are in 2ww... hugs to all who have recently gotten AF. I am cd9, and have my u/s to check follies on thursday. I try to be realistic-w/o being pessimistic for most things in life. But I am making a conscious effort to be positive this month. I am telling myself I WILL conceive this month- I really do feel like this is supposed to be my month. I haven't had hope in over a year...just couldn't take the letdown when af showed up every month. But I am going to hope this month and believe that I will get preg this month (I should ovulate right before halloween). Maybe some positive reinforcement will do some good! I have to talk to my "negative side" @ least once a day and remind myself I am not going to be negative this month!!

We need some BFP this month!!

[Lola88]

Hang in there, crystal-mommy. We just have to keep the faith that our time will come when it is meant too, as hard as that is sometimes!!:

[gumby74]

Originally Posted by Lola88

hmmm.............

I have another question....sorry, I am kinda naive on some of this stuff, BUT if I took my trigger shot 8 days ago on CD12, and today is CD20, is it normal for me to have ewcm today?

Not to get your hopes up........but, it can be a sign of pregnancy.



Crystal: Hang in there indeed!!!!

[crystal-mommy]

Am I the only one that doesn't remember how to BD just because?? and not b/c its Cd 10-16?? My dh is feeling very "used"!! Men! complain if they get it or if they dont! (he is a little bit right about this- not that i would tell him that!!)

[songbird45]

You're not the only one. For a while I'd make a special effort, now I just don't care.

[wtg4miracle]

We have the same issue. Men always say they can bd all the time but when it gets near O time they freak out. Last night we bd, it was great (sorry tmi) but its not time and he knows it. He have so much anxiety performance its killing me.

I told him that we should just relax for a few months until the RE takes over. I told him that bding on our own is not going to help us. So why not have fun, right?

I am trying to be positive. I am so negative and depresed is killing me. I have this horrible dreaded gloom over me. I feel awful and I am drowning in my own pity. I am at a point that I am really scared and I don't know why. I feel like loosing it.

Dh told me today that I should go on antidepressants. I think this is a good idea cause I can't manage now. I am doing stupid stuff and not using my brain correctly.

Damn, crap, BS, friggin bad morphs. GEEZ

You can tell I am upset cause another girl at work annouced they are pregnant yesterday.

[gumby74]

Originally Posted by crystal-mommy

Am I the only one that doesn't remember how to BD just because?? and not b/c its Cd 10-16?? My dh is feeling very "used"!! Men! complain if they get it or if they dont! (he is a little bit right about this- not that i would tell him that!!)

Crystal: When my dh complains about when we BD......I usually just remind him of all the poking and prodding I have to go through in order conceive. It's a little hard to want to BD when I feel like everyone is poking me.

[crystal-mommy]

Wtg4miracle It is really hard when it seems like every one around you can just say the word "sperm" and be preg w/in a week!! I take meds that help w/ anxiety and help me relax. I didn't start them for the whole TTC process but they sure have helped!! (I wasn't actively TTC when I had to start on them) This whole things bites! Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to be honest w/ yourself about how it WILL hurt to see your coworker preg,etc.

Gumby I had to talk my DH into the whole infertility process, so I try not to complain too much. Cause his philosophy is... "if its meant to be it will be". He thinks all the u/s, appts, pills, etc aren't necessary. My response " oh my didn't realize YOU had MD behind your name Mr !!" He also thinks that if we take a "break and relax" it will happen on its own. *rolls eyes* Ppl have no freakin clue!!

[wtg4miracle]

crystal-mommy--i like the idea of anti-anxiety meds. I am just going out of my mind. Or I should go on both meds. When I was younger I was in a bad rut and I took wellbutrin with buspar. Taking both helped each other synergistically. I might be calling my doc for the scripts. I just can't handle this no more. Oh yea the pregnanies come in waves at work, one starts it and about 6 girls follow afterwards. I just can't take it no more. I have to work, dh is in school so I can't run and hide from the world.

[crystal-mommy]

Originally Posted by wtg4miracle

crystal-mommy--i like the idea of anti-anxiety meds. I am just going out of my mind. Or I should go on both meds. When I was younger I was in a bad rut and I took wellbutrin with buspar. Taking both helped each other synergistically. I might be calling my doc for the scripts. I just can't handle this no more. Oh yea the pregnanies come in waves at work, one starts it and about 6 girls follow afterwards. I just can't take it no more. I have to work, dh is in school so I can't run and hide from the world.

That is exactly what I am taking. I take Wellbutrin and Buspar 5mg (I can take 10mg up to 3x a day-but half of one pill works really well). I started taking the Buspar about 2 months ago. I started on Wellbutrin when my nephew passed away. I started having panic attacks- and Wellbutrin is the only medication that is Category B during pregnancy. Not the best medication for anxiety-but after a couple of weeks it worked really well. I wish I had known about the buspar when I started the wellbutrin!! and the good thing is now they have generic wellbutrin xl-so its cheap AND you only have to take it once a day!


The pregnancies @ work come in @ least 3. My best friend is preg so there should be 2 more pregnancies somewhere in the next couple of months.

[Lola88]

Originally Posted by gumby74

Not to get your hopes up........but, it can be a sign of pregnancy.



Crystal: Hang in there indeed!!!!

Well, I kinda thought that too, but I've been REALLY crampy the last few days, like AF is going to show up, but no spotting just CM, plus it is too early for AF. Just haven't felt this crampy, this early and for this long???????? It was my first trigger, so that's prob. all it is.

wtg and crystal- I know seeing preggos at work is a killer!! My best friend who has been on this IF journey with me forever just got her BFP and it is so hard for me emotionally to be there for her, even though I am thrilled that she finally made it!!

It does suck...oh, and BTW, my DH has the whole BD anxiety thing when it's time as well....aarrgghh!

[by-the-lake]

Lola- I will say the trigger definantly makes cramps. But the EWCM.....good luck

[crystal-mommy]

Originally Posted by Lola88

wtg and crystal- I know seeing preggos at work is a killer!! My best friend who has been on this IF journey with me forever just got her BFP and it is so hard for me emotionally to be there for her, even though I am thrilled that she finally made it!!

Do you feel like you can't really talk to her about the whole IF thing right now? I feel like unless she asks I don't want to say anything. Cause I don't want her to be upset or feel like I am jealous. I am NOT in the least bit jealous (thought I would be but have been pleasantly surprised that I am not!!) I used to call her after every u/s and tell her how it went and what the Dr said.

It WILL be our turn... we just gotta be patient! Unfortunately easier said than done!!!

[MeadowMom]

Hey everyone, haven't really been keeping up. Feeling a little down, our cycle this month was cancelled due to some large cysts. So back on BCP's this month, trudging through with the metformin.
On top of that dh and I have both been sick all week with sinus infections.
Keeping fingers crossed for next month.
Hope everyone is doing good!

[poetgirl]

Originally Posted by wtg4miracle

I think she is talking about using real eggs and taking out the white part and using it as ewcm. I read somewhere that some gals have actually done this. I really thought of doing this.

That's right. It's in TCOYF and I admit I was pretty darn skeeved out when I read it but given this is prob. our last natural shot before ivf or inject, I went for it. Turns out it is supposed to be room temp, didn't do that. Also, ummm, I didn't tell DH. Is that terrible? He was in the shower, we had minimal time to do this and I didn't want to thwart it bickering about eggwhite in my hoo-ha. So there you have it. I did have to come clean to the midwife who did a pap for me today though. I politely said listen I've been trying to get pregnant forever and you should know I O'd yesterday, we've had sex twice in the last 24 hrs and there may be some errant eggwhite up there. Good Luck.
And as it turns out the barely silver lining with having gone through the HSG, saline sono, multiple polyp surgeries, dilating stick and 3 IUIs in the past 11 mths is.....that a pap smear now feels like getting licked by kittens. My midwife said in 35 yrs of doing this, she'd never seen anyone relax her pelvic muscles so well during an annual. Oh the talents we gather in this process.

Also, re: BDing being hard. We had a big blowout last week about sex. It seems to effect us all. I'm better at working at it some tiimes than others. I try to help it when I can because it just gets worse if I don't and I really don't know how long this will go on. Lately, the relationship felt a little risked. We decided to work on increasing intimacy sans sex since we don't have to be pressured 1/mth to be intimate. It's helping. This month's bd was much more normal feeling. FWIW

[crystal-mommy]

Do you know how much a progesterone level costs?? I do!! $337!!! WTH!! I couldn't figure out what the monthly bill the hospital was sending me that said ins was paying x amt and I owed x amt (I think I have to pay $15 for it-not sure) Well, I got another bill in the mail and decided to investigate @ little. Holy crap! I think it is so weird the different price levels and how much things cost. I KNOW it doesn't cost the hospital that much money to run a simple test!


Anyways-enough complaining. Altho I am sure my insurance LOVES me and all this infertility crap!! Off to the dr to get my u/s and see how many follies I have this month.

Poetgirl LMAO!! You are too funny w/ your kitten analogy!!

[gumby74]

Poetgirl: How in the world did DH not know there were egg whites in there?You are cracking me up!

Wtg: I hope the RE is able to give you more hope........it's hard when you feel like you don't have anything to look forward to.