This might be long. I'm not sure where else to post.
I am 25 weeks pregnant with our third son. For about three months, I've been on bed rest because of contractions, short cervix, placenta previa and a history of preterm labor and birth. All of my pregnancies have been difficult, but this has been by far the worst. I had hyperemesis my first trimester and I've been in a lot of physical pain. I just don't feel like I can do it anymore.
My husband and I have done everything we can to try to make it through this time, but we're really struggling. We're not being very nice to each other anymore, mostly because we're exhausted. He has an intense job and is trying to do everything I can't do at home. We had just moved into a new house when we found out I was pregnant and there is a lot to do still.
We have some help with our two young children from family and friends, but with the exception of my family, no one seems to understand. Over and over again, people seem to forget that I've been dealing with this difficult situation for months and no, it's not getting better. They say really stupid things like "enjoy the rest while you can". Or they make empty offers to pray or call or help - which most people never end up doing. We try to go to church on Sundays - this is literally the only thing I do other than going to the doctor - and invariably I have to explain what's going on to half a dozen people. Again. Everyone thinks we must be fine if we show up to church. The truth is that we're barely surviving as a family.
In the middle of all of this, I feel like I am sinking into a deep depression. I'm so tired of everything in my life being out of control. I'm tired of the mess and chaos around our house. I'm tired of the pain and the constant worry. I am at the point that I just want to lay in bed and cry.
Sometimes I struggle with feeling like I want to do something to end this pregnancy. Whether that means stopping the medication that is preventing contractions, doing too much around the house, or whatever else. I'm not eating well and I'm not taking my vitamins. I probably have gained less than 10 pounds in this pregnancy so far and I was too thin to begin with. I feel like I am losing weight everywhere other than my belly. I have no desire to eat. I have a hard time sleeping at night. Most of the time I just try to distract myself to survive, but I just want to give up.
I have no idea what to do. I'd like to talk to my husband about this, but he is so busy with our kids, the house, and his job that we literally have had no time to talk about how we're really doing.
And I didn't even want to be pregnant. My husband and I were using birth control and this pregnancy was not planned. We wanted to avoid getting pregnant again soon because we knew I'd have a complicated pregnancy. And we have, much worse than we thought. I want the baby, but I don't think I can handle another month, let alone the three my baby really needs.
I don't feel like I can talk to my doctors about this. I had midwives I trusted, but I had to switch out of their care to an OB who I hardly know. My perinatologist is a good doctor, but not someone I feel like I can talk to. I always put on a good face and pretend everything is fine and that we're making it through this. But if I am honest, I'm really, really struggling.
Okay, that was long. Any wisdom or encouragement out there?
I am 25 weeks pregnant with our third son. For about three months, I've been on bed rest because of contractions, short cervix, placenta previa and a history of preterm labor and birth. All of my pregnancies have been difficult, but this has been by far the worst. I had hyperemesis my first trimester and I've been in a lot of physical pain. I just don't feel like I can do it anymore.
My husband and I have done everything we can to try to make it through this time, but we're really struggling. We're not being very nice to each other anymore, mostly because we're exhausted. He has an intense job and is trying to do everything I can't do at home. We had just moved into a new house when we found out I was pregnant and there is a lot to do still.
We have some help with our two young children from family and friends, but with the exception of my family, no one seems to understand. Over and over again, people seem to forget that I've been dealing with this difficult situation for months and no, it's not getting better. They say really stupid things like "enjoy the rest while you can". Or they make empty offers to pray or call or help - which most people never end up doing. We try to go to church on Sundays - this is literally the only thing I do other than going to the doctor - and invariably I have to explain what's going on to half a dozen people. Again. Everyone thinks we must be fine if we show up to church. The truth is that we're barely surviving as a family.
In the middle of all of this, I feel like I am sinking into a deep depression. I'm so tired of everything in my life being out of control. I'm tired of the mess and chaos around our house. I'm tired of the pain and the constant worry. I am at the point that I just want to lay in bed and cry.
Sometimes I struggle with feeling like I want to do something to end this pregnancy. Whether that means stopping the medication that is preventing contractions, doing too much around the house, or whatever else. I'm not eating well and I'm not taking my vitamins. I probably have gained less than 10 pounds in this pregnancy so far and I was too thin to begin with. I feel like I am losing weight everywhere other than my belly. I have no desire to eat. I have a hard time sleeping at night. Most of the time I just try to distract myself to survive, but I just want to give up.
I have no idea what to do. I'd like to talk to my husband about this, but he is so busy with our kids, the house, and his job that we literally have had no time to talk about how we're really doing.
And I didn't even want to be pregnant. My husband and I were using birth control and this pregnancy was not planned. We wanted to avoid getting pregnant again soon because we knew I'd have a complicated pregnancy. And we have, much worse than we thought. I want the baby, but I don't think I can handle another month, let alone the three my baby really needs.
I don't feel like I can talk to my doctors about this. I had midwives I trusted, but I had to switch out of their care to an OB who I hardly know. My perinatologist is a good doctor, but not someone I feel like I can talk to. I always put on a good face and pretend everything is fine and that we're making it through this. But if I am honest, I'm really, really struggling.
Okay, that was long. Any wisdom or encouragement out there?
Talking about it with people ALWAYS involves "I could sure use that kind of rest" or something similar, and it completely astounds me.
See if you can check for bedrest support. 
