Originally Posted by casemnor
Stop holding yourself accountable for some standards that you think are out there...the only requirements you need to worry about is loving Nora, yourself and your husband...and knowing that as a litle family...you'll all figure it out along the way.
This is one of the hardest parts of all of this for me. I have to get over the whole purity thing b/c i knew that breast was best. I was so set on her being exclusively bf'd - no formula, no water, no bottles for 6 weeks, etc. I wanted her to be pure. Letting go of that and realizing that it doesn't apply anymore has thrown me completely for a loop.
As for support right now, I have Chris, of course, but he is dealing with fears and hurt as well. I'm really just pouring it all out here b/c bothn sets of grandparents think formula is no big deal. They didn't bf us, so they just don't get the hurt that I'm going through.
We took her to see the ped this morning just to make sure that there is nothing wrong with her b/c of the screaming, etc. She actually gained 8 oz and is 2 oz over her birthweight!! All on BM!! I'm like, that was all us, Nora, you are a miracle!! It just sucks that bf'ing was going so well and we had to stop. It just sucks. Her color is good, she's vigorous, tummy felt soft -- the ped said she's fine. Just tough it out until we find out one way or another about the galactosemia and we will go from there. And they gave us a 4 day-ish supply of the formula, which is helpful, too.
I'm slowly coming around...I have to just take it one hour at a time, one bottle at a time, one hurdle at a time.