My water broke...all by itself. Now what? UPDATE post #24--failed VBAC - Page 2

[Alison]

I just wanted to thank everyone for their comments and encouragement. I did really well, I think, and I'm proud of what I accomplished. I still ended up with a c-section, and I'm not really ready to talk about it yet, so my birth story is going to wait a while. Of all the great and supportive obstetricians at the hospital the one on call when I got there was evil, and totally misled me, and the midwife. Anyway, thanks again everyone, thanks.

Alison

[jlbaby]

Originally Posted by Alison

I just wanted to thank everyone for their comments and encouragement. I did really well, I think, and I'm proud of what I accomplished.

this is so important, though i am very sorry to hear about your unfortunate OB experience. i mainly hope you and babe are healthy, and doing well together. wishing you a peaceful recovery process.

[lovemysunshine]

I'm sorry mama. We'll be here to listen when/if you're ready to share. Congratulations on your new little one! :

[Alison]

Basically, I wasn't progressing, the OB resident checked me, said she'd check back in an hour or so, and if I hadn't progressed, we'd talk about augmentation. When she checked back, I hadn't progressed, but the OB completely overrode the resident, and informed me that they won't augment a VBAC for failure to progress period (which I know isn't true, because the resident was offering it, and my own doc, not on call, had also mentioned it as a possibility). The midwife and I were totally blindsided, because the resident had been talking augmentation only an hour earlier, and augmentation was what I needed. At that point, there wasn't anything we could do, she was offering c-section or nothing, and even the midwife was worried about the failure to progress. Baby was posterior still, that could have had something to do with it, but we were doing everything we could to reposition her during labour. I just needed time and maybe a little help via augmentation to get the contractions a little harder and closer together. So basically I was robbed of a vaginal birth because I'd had a previous section, no other reason, and the previous section would never have happened if I'd been more informed 5 years ago when it happened. Then we were stuck in the hospital for almost 6 days with the baby under lights for jaundice, waaaay overcautious, and seriously I was ready to kill someone by the time I got out--preferably the OB who decided that because I'd had one section, my only option was another. I so wish things had happened differently, and I'm second guessing every decision I made during this labour. I've got this lovely baby girl, but all I can do is grieve and question, and it sucks. And this was my last baby, so it's not like I'll ever have another chance to do this. I'm just so sad.

[PassionateWriter]

i am so sorry your labor didnt go the way you wanted it to. i dont know if you have joined ICAN or not, but there is a new board that seems to be really good (ive only been there for a few weeks). here is a link: http://ican-online.org/forum/index.php

you have every right to spend time grieving the birth while enjoying your precious little bundle . cant wait to see pix!

[infraread]

to you, Alison. I'm facing a similar situation, so my heart goes out to you & what you're feeling is very understandable. People are going to tell you to be happy about your little girl (and sure you are!) but you have the right to mourn the birth you wanted! ICAN has wonderful resources and even a forum full of women who will "get" where you're coming from, if you ever feel like you get blown off irl.