Can't cope. - Page 8

[heartmama]

I came here today looking for you and am so glad to see a new post. We are still here for you, always, and any time you want to check in I know there are many people eager to connect with you and send their support.

I think you are one of the best mama's on the planet, because you are being honest, and sharing this part of your journey with us, even though it is a painful and horrible--you are keeping people connected to it, keeping it real, and that is a million times harder to do when you are in so much pain. But you are doing it--thank you so much for letting us be part of your journey.

I am so sorry for the pain you felt on Lucas' birthday

[Gismobabe]

I understand!

All I can tell you it that it will get easier over time. I still feel so sorry for myself at times and lament the fact that it happened to me and no one else around me had to lose their child (which is not true as I have learned over the past three years).
My son could not be saved and no one could even tell me what caused his brain to bleed so bad (I think it was vaccines).
I just wanted to say that now, three years later I can look at his face in a picture and smile at him. I can understand and feel that through his death I became a better person. I am not afraid of dying anymore and I have a better understanding of death and dying. I can feel with you, really understand you and be a help to others.
I know that when the pain is so fresh and you have got even more bad things to deal with this seems so not possible for you.
I am from Austria and I know that the same health care is cheaper in other places. Would it be possible for you to have the procedure done in another country?
I am sending my thoughts, my strength and my love to you.

Barbara, mom of Isabel (2004), Jake (8/27/2006 to 3/7/2007), Noah (2008)

[Thandiwe]

Originally Posted by PlayaMama

i'm so glad to see an update from you.

i'm so sorry it's not going very well. i still think of you and lucas often. more often than i'd like to admit since i'm really just a stranger on the internet, but your story and his story touched me deeply, i am confident that i will think of you and your family for the rest of my life. which is only to say, i will be praying for you to find peace for a long time.

Ditto. I couldn't have said this any better. I feel the same. My heart breaks for you and all that you've endured.

[Cuddlebaby]

ktbug, we'd love to have another update HOpe you and yours are better.

[~Boudicca~]

thinking of you mama...

[babblingbrook]

Still thinking of you and your beautiful boy.

[oliversmum2000]