Can't cope. - Page 5

[Breathless Wonder]

I'm so sorry.

[operamommy]

*Hugs* Still thinking of you.

[angelachristin]

still thinking of your beautiful Lucas and you and your DH.

[Ifluffedthree]

I have read your post several times and back to say again I am thinking of you.

HUG

[2mama]

You are not a failure! You are going through a loss and greiving. It will get better. Have you tried focusing on the wonderful times that you had with him? He is still your baby and he would not want you to hurt like this. Have you tried seeing a therapist. It might help. Your son will always be with you in your heart and soul! He loves you!

[hellyaellen]

just adding a as well as my prayers and thoughts

[2 in August]

s: I don't get to mdc very often these days, but I still think about you and your sweet little guy often.

[hibana]

[JenMidwife]

holding you & Lucas in my heart

[lalaland42]

Thinking of you and Lucas.

[PlayaMama]

how odd that i was just thinking of you the other day and wondering how you are doing. i just popped into this forum to see if there was anything from you and here this is.

i posted in your initial thread because i had a dream about you and lucas. i can't remember it now but i know that i was so sad for you.

your story has made me stop myself so many times from getting angry and frustrated with my littles. i think how much a mama would give to have those little frustrations again, what my life would be like if i crossed that abyss, and i'm more thankful for every little moment with them because i know that there is no safety net and that bad things happen to decent, caring people for no reason at all.

i wish i could help to heal it. honestly, i think the fact that you get out of bed every day is a huge accomplishment let alone going to work and brushing your hair and eating and all that day to day stuff.

huge hugs to you and know that you and lucas have improved my little's lives i hope that in some teeny tiny way that may help you. my thoughts are with you.

[heartmama]

I think six months is a very short time.

I am just so sorry and want you to find comfort so badly

The only thought I feel compelled to share, on the issue of feeling like a total failure, is that the child you created together is forever. He was here, not for as long as he should have been, but nothing can take back the fact of his existence. You did that, you and your dh, you created a beautiful boy. He was real and loved and he had a happy life. Once you are a mom, you can never NOT be a mom, that is forever.

[east carolina]

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing their child is the greatest tragedy that could befall a parent. Grief is a long process, mama. Be gentle with yourself.

[mama in the forest]

Peace mama.

[aran]

I am so sorry you have to go *through* this. I have never had to deal with anything as difficult as what you are dealing with now. But from my own smaller difficulties I understand the awful feeling when there is no off-ramp, and what it is like to have to keep going *through* the thick, awful, relentless pain. I wish I could offer some relief. I hope you have or find some shoulders to cry on and a person who will listen to the anger and let it pour out. Pour it out.

[Aleo]

i'm so sorry mama.

[becoming]

Still thinking of you and Lucas.

[Carma]

Me too!

Carma

[genoisegurl]

I'm so, so sorry you're going through this.

[ColoradoMama]

I'm sorry just doesn't seem to cut it, but I am truly sorry. I do hope you can find some peace. I also think of you often. I don't think I told you, but I lit a candle in church for your beautiful Lucas.