I've been so busy around here I haven't had time to revisit my own thread lol...
So I'm wondering, can anyone else relate to this? I'm simply amazed at how my body just knows what to do for birthing. Both of my labors were quick, ds's was five hours (but with pit) and Elina's was three, so I don't know how I would have handled things with a long labor (tons of kudos to all who have gone through that!) but it's like my mind and body just settle into this different state where riding through the contractions is bearable. I mean I felt everything, I remember just how strong the contractions were, and how strong the nauseated feeling was. But it's as though I was able to function on a different level and "not feel" it at the same time. Or maybe I was experiencing it with a totality that made it seem and feel surreal. Does that make any sense?
And on one more little note, the peace and joy in birthing at home after my first experience infused the whole process. Even when I couldn't speak from contractions I just wanted to be smiling, I wanted everyone else to understand how well things were going, although I didn't know how to communicate that lol. Poor Dh was so stressed at first running around trying to get all the things ready that we had planned to set up - music, candles, etc.... and be there through contractions as well, we had no idea it was going to be that quick. So when the midwife found me at 8 cm I told him to drop everything else, we weren't going to need it anyway. He was such a great birthing partner, too... as nervous as he was about it beforehand, it's like he instinctively knew how to provide what I needed through contractions. And I love the fact that even though we never discussed it prior, he just jumped right in the birthing tub with me without hesitation, as his own idea. I really feel like I can say we birthed our baby girl together.
Random thoughts over, time to get back to studying for midterms..