I just need to know if there is anyone that does not feel ready for the challenge of labor ahead and is very nervous about having a newborn in the house???
This is my 4th pregnancy. It was a surprise to us. 4 days after we received orders to move to Germany, we tested + for this little one. The report date and our due date was 10 days apart...so yes, a very big surprise.
The pregnancy went by easy and quickly, aside from the backburner anxiety of hoping the military would approve us to extend our report date so DH could be here for the birth....otherwise it would be me, a newborn, and 3 children under the age of 6 negotiating moving country from UK to Germany, getting passport from london embassy on my own, moving the house and furniture, the car, negotiating all the kids and myself on the plane etc on my own just 6-8 weeks after birth....
3 days after learning our extension was approved and we did not have to report to germany until January and could homebirth in peace here and TOGETHER....our landlord serves us eviction. this was at 8 months into the pregnancy. We have been very forthright with her about the new baby coming and that we would require residence until january instead of November. She made many VERBAL agreements to let us stay those extra two months. (little did we know that sometime around our 12th week of pregnancy she had already secured new tenants with a raised rent fee).....
So, at 8 months pregnant our shelter was taken from us and we ran like crazy trying to secure a new place to homebirth in, move all of our things over ourselves, secure a storage place for our furniture....etc.
at 35 weeks things were settling down. we had our new place. my only concern was now turning a suddenly transverse baby back to thier head-down position. (all the stress and physical activity of moving suddenly turned baby sideways)
at my 36 week appt, baby had indeed turned back to head down!
now the dust is settling and I am trying to "nest" as best as i can in a new location with furniture that isn't ours (which is better than living out of boxes for 3 months)...etc. but i FEEL unsettled. I feel like this pregnancy has "snuck up" on me. I am panicked.
With my 3rd birth (my first HB) the entire pregnancy was calm and relaxed. I could rest pretty well inbetween taking care of my 3 and 4 yr olds, and could practice my hypnobabies at naptime everyday. i had all kinds of time on the pc to scope out birthstories and edify myself. When labor commenced it flowed freely...there was no anxiety or panic, i just went with it. My confidence was sturdy.
This pregnancy has had such an air of anxiety about it, of panic, or worry..."will we even be here to birth, will i be alone to birth? okay, dh WILL be here yay! (3 days of complete rest and then....oh my gosh...how are we going to get out? where are we going to go....are we still going to have our HB?"
I worry the unease that has plagued this whole pregnancy will follow into the birth and i will not be able to cope. I was peaceful with my son's pregnancy and went on to have a peacefilled labor. This pregnancy has been the exact opposite, will my birth be the exact opposite too? my confidence is anything but sturdy this time. with so much swimming over our heads the last 9 months, I feel i have had little to NO time spent just realishing being pregnant or looking FORWARD to the birth. much more time was spent dealing with other things, and now suddenly birth is upon us....i have 4 weeks left at most (maybe 5 if babe is late)
is anyone else in panicky shoes? anyone else feel the pregnancy has gone by too fast and now feels overwhelmed to know it is nearing the end?
i want to cope well with the labor. i don't want my pregnancy anxiety's to hold it up in any way. I want to fall in love with my newborn. I worry i won't know what to do, that i will hold this child and feel completely disconnected. this all makes me want to cry...
This is my 4th pregnancy. It was a surprise to us. 4 days after we received orders to move to Germany, we tested + for this little one. The report date and our due date was 10 days apart...so yes, a very big surprise.
The pregnancy went by easy and quickly, aside from the backburner anxiety of hoping the military would approve us to extend our report date so DH could be here for the birth....otherwise it would be me, a newborn, and 3 children under the age of 6 negotiating moving country from UK to Germany, getting passport from london embassy on my own, moving the house and furniture, the car, negotiating all the kids and myself on the plane etc on my own just 6-8 weeks after birth....
3 days after learning our extension was approved and we did not have to report to germany until January and could homebirth in peace here and TOGETHER....our landlord serves us eviction. this was at 8 months into the pregnancy. We have been very forthright with her about the new baby coming and that we would require residence until january instead of November. She made many VERBAL agreements to let us stay those extra two months. (little did we know that sometime around our 12th week of pregnancy she had already secured new tenants with a raised rent fee).....
So, at 8 months pregnant our shelter was taken from us and we ran like crazy trying to secure a new place to homebirth in, move all of our things over ourselves, secure a storage place for our furniture....etc.
at 35 weeks things were settling down. we had our new place. my only concern was now turning a suddenly transverse baby back to thier head-down position. (all the stress and physical activity of moving suddenly turned baby sideways)
at my 36 week appt, baby had indeed turned back to head down!
now the dust is settling and I am trying to "nest" as best as i can in a new location with furniture that isn't ours (which is better than living out of boxes for 3 months)...etc. but i FEEL unsettled. I feel like this pregnancy has "snuck up" on me. I am panicked.
With my 3rd birth (my first HB) the entire pregnancy was calm and relaxed. I could rest pretty well inbetween taking care of my 3 and 4 yr olds, and could practice my hypnobabies at naptime everyday. i had all kinds of time on the pc to scope out birthstories and edify myself. When labor commenced it flowed freely...there was no anxiety or panic, i just went with it. My confidence was sturdy.
This pregnancy has had such an air of anxiety about it, of panic, or worry..."will we even be here to birth, will i be alone to birth? okay, dh WILL be here yay! (3 days of complete rest and then....oh my gosh...how are we going to get out? where are we going to go....are we still going to have our HB?"
I worry the unease that has plagued this whole pregnancy will follow into the birth and i will not be able to cope. I was peaceful with my son's pregnancy and went on to have a peacefilled labor. This pregnancy has been the exact opposite, will my birth be the exact opposite too? my confidence is anything but sturdy this time. with so much swimming over our heads the last 9 months, I feel i have had little to NO time spent just realishing being pregnant or looking FORWARD to the birth. much more time was spent dealing with other things, and now suddenly birth is upon us....i have 4 weeks left at most (maybe 5 if babe is late)
is anyone else in panicky shoes? anyone else feel the pregnancy has gone by too fast and now feels overwhelmed to know it is nearing the end?
i want to cope well with the labor. i don't want my pregnancy anxiety's to hold it up in any way. I want to fall in love with my newborn. I worry i won't know what to do, that i will hold this child and feel completely disconnected. this all makes me want to cry...
mama!
You are going through some really tough stuff right now! I can't really relate, because we have had a relatively calm and uncomplicated pregnancy and living situation, but as it gets closer to the end I find myself so emotionally fragile anyway. I am much moodier than I have ever been (well, not since puberty 
) and cry at the drop of a hat. I think the end of pregnancy is just a very emothional time. I am sure that once it is time for your baby to be born, all the other issues that are stealing your focus will fade and you will be able to give birth very peacefully. Some quiet time to yourself (if you can manage it) will help a lot.
I'm going crazy, simultaneously wanting the time to speed up and slow down.
