Nono, Thanks for the link I read it, It does give me hope and no I don't have any numbers. I guess I need to hold on hope till I can't anymore. It does seem like we put so much trust in technology. Have you m/c'ed before? And are you feeling better? I hope so
I can't stand not knowing, but I feel like an ultrasound wouldn't provide relief even if it were normal, because abnormal betas are strongly associated with miscarriage even after a normal ultrasound. And because I know more than one person who had an ultrasound that showed a normal baby only to find out later that the baby likely died a day or two after the ultrasound. And if my ultrasound were abnormal, I wouldn't give up hope. So I have decided I don't want to do it.
Waiting is horrible. Acting like everything is normal is so strange, but I've just got to do it. There is no sense in grieving for something that may not actually happen. I will have time enough to grieve if the time comes for that.