does anyone else suddenly feel like a recluse and hate everyone?

[guestmama9904]

i'm only half-joking mamas. life on the outside of my house just feels like too much. every time i talk with my mom she says something that i percieve as judgemental or rude and i hang up on her (i know that's immature but my fuses seem to be short). or i'll be driving and someone will honk at me because i am feeling foggy and not speeding the second the light changes and trying to drive safetly and then i just feel like screaming and crying and getting out of the car and yelling at everyone within earshot "i am pregnant and could you all just chill the bleep out!!!". i only like my immediate family, and i only like my house and i am so glad i am having a homebirth because i hate the world.

is this just normal last minuteish crabbyness and oversensitivity? i am 36 weeks and just cannot wait to see my baby.

feel free to join me in my pity party.

[mochimama]

Yes Yes Yes!
I mostly just want to be alone and cry though. But people are starting to bug me, like my boss for instance. I'm tired of him giving me only negative criticism. Can't he say anything positive? Like "I really appreciate you flying to another state to attend a meeting at 35 weeks pregnant. You did a great job and everybody loved you. How are you hanging in there?" Instead I get "Don't you think you should (fill in the blank) instead of (what I'm currently doing)?"
My sister is coming to visit this week supposedly to help with babysitting dd as I rest and continue my work obligations and when I asked her if she could sit with dd while dh and I do a 3 hour birthing class she says "I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle her by myself for 3 hours--what with all the tantrums and everything." And dh is hooking up the damned tv for her because she can't live without it. What was I thinking allowing visitors?
So, yes, I'm annoyed--people just leave me the heck alone

[Nautical]

It seems that everything that anyone says sets me off right off, even benign comments. I also feel like recluse. I'm a home all day (first baby) alone, and don't have the energy to go into town most days, as I don't have a car and need to walk. Up until two weeks ago, I was still walking about three miles a day. So, unless we have evening plans, I only see Dh right now. When he has plans in the evening for just him I am incredibly lonely. I realize that the time he gets to spend with his friends will be limited after the baby is born. But, what about me??? (I wish there was a whiney emoticon.)

[OkiMom]

I skipped church on Sunday because the idea of dealing with people alone (DH had to work) was just too much for me. We have a halloween party to go to tomorrow and I already told him one remark about me still being pregnant and Im going to lose it. I don't even want to go to my prenatal appointment because I get tired of people staring at my belly (its a clinic that serves active duty Marines too so a pregnant woman is a little bit of the odd person out).
I went to pick up some food the other day and this Marine stared at me from the minute I walked into the place to the minute I left. She never took her eyes off of me. I wanted to go and ask her for admission since I seemed to be so interesting.

[chisub]

My sister's DH filed for divorce yesterday so there is a bunch of family drama and while I'm OK discussing it with my sister I can't handle discussing it with my Mom right now. I feel like my sis has a reason to need to talk to me and lean on me, but my Mom should give me a break since I'm about to have a baby, you know? I just don't care about other people's drama right now and don't have the energy for it.

[Birdie B.]

Yeah, I'm here too. : I'm still working, and get to hear all sorts of wonderful commentary throughout the day, such as "You haven't had that baby yet?!" "You're still here?!" "I bet you can't wait to have that baby!"
Yesterday I went grocery shopping to start feeding my freezer, and literally every aisle I went down I would get stopped by a random stranger and asked about my baby. "What are you having?" "When are you due?" "I bet you can't wait to have that baby!"
I know people mean well, but it's driving me absolutely crazy!! The only people I can stand to be around right now are my other pregnant friends, because they can at least relate, and they don't ask stupid questions. I wish I had everything ready so I didn't have to keep going shopping - I can't wait until I can just hide in my house and make baby clothes :

[ambotchka]

I'm just overly emotional right now. After dropping DD off at her once-weekly daycare (which started two hours later today), I called DH to meet up for lunch b/c I needed to be with someone. While waiting for him to show up, I checked my email and saw my parents have bought their tickets to come out for Thanksgiving...they'll be here from the 26th-29th. And their tickets were $1200. So, I was crying in my car b/c my mom will only be here for four days, and I was crying because they had to spend so much money just to be here for four days.

I really want my mom, but she's never been around when I want her most.

[p.s]

wow! just the way you describe it... it sounds really primal. You know, how animals when they are ready to birth they go and hide and do their thing.
hmmm... you may be seeing that baby beore 4 weeks time...

[KindRedSpirit]

yeah,see my vent at the Kitchen Table thread...I need a doula NOW.Fix meals, tell dh to vacuum,bathe and dress kids,bring me a clean glass of water,and just ask how I am, not anything specific,just "How are you?"Then care to hear if I say anything.And if SOMEONE of the 5 other grown people in scouts, including Dh could please make a decision and follow it through,in the next 24 hours,THAT would be great.

[KindRedSpirit]

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[Kleine Hexe]

Yep, I am annoyed by the whole world as well. All I want to do is buy diapers on line...all day long.

[Booflies]

I've thrown up six times today. So yeah, I just want to hide inside and whine and moan. I have no intention to get out of my pajamas. It's beautiful outside today and will be rainy for the rest of the week. Still doesn't motivate me!

[Jackies Ladybug]

i haven't left my house in 2 days, and you know what? i might not leave again today!
i am just over it, and i get really crampy every time i start walking anywhere and i am so not having this baby on the sidewalk!

[coyotemist]

I'm emotionally done at work. But we need the money, and they haven't found my replacement yet. Who would think that 4 hours a day would be such toture. There are a lot of people who I enjoy at work, but well, it's hard to get moving every day. I just want my husband and kids snuggled around, and everyone else can go away.

[Katielady]

Yeah, I'm pissy as hell, and feeling like I want to cloister myself. It's all part of the nesting instinct I think- you don't want any strangers around when you're close to birthing.

[TefferTWH]

Originally Posted by p.s

wow! just the way you describe it... it sounds really primal. You know, how animals when they are ready to birth they go and hide and do their thing.
hmmm... you may be seeing that baby beore 4 weeks time...

This was my thought exactly. I had a really b*tchy day yesterday, glowering about some family issues, and hubby was jumpy that I'd go into labor any time. I get that way before I birth though. I think that side is tougher and more capable. Of course, it scares hubby .....

[Katielady]

I picked a fight (via email) with someone in my kid's playgroup about the timing of starting solids. :

I have gotten to the point where I tend to just let things like that go, but I couldn't help myself. Someone asked about timing for the second baby; I responded with all kinds of info and links about the value of waiting til at least 6 months. So this other mom was saying that it's good to start at 4 months because they have to learn how to swallow properly- "it's a learned behavior," she said. Um no. I should have dropped it in the interest of peacekeeping but I was in this no BS kind of mode....I hate it when people make statements as though they're fact, when in fact it's just something they heard and they have *nothing* to back it up. So I went on and on about the tongue thrust reflex and how it goes away *on its own* sometime between 4 and 6 months...she said she'd never seen a baby who didn't spit out its food at the first feedings...and I was like, "My son never spat out his food." That's when people started emailing me privately to be like, "Um, what is going on with you two?" OMG. It was a total flame war, but with people I know and care about IRL so it's even worse!

[two bricks shy]

Totally here.

My biggest "goals" in life right now are sleeping, eating, and knitting..oh and playing on the Wii. I don't want to see my friends, go shopping (unless it is for baby stuff and preferably online), or really deal with anyone or anything. If I could have healthy food delivered for an affordable price, I'd be all over it.

Mom decided to come up tomorrow. There is a part of me that is wishing she wouldn't but she's going to go do something with DD. It's great because...well frankly I need the break and Mom is going to help care for DD during/right after we have the baby. It helps DD be more used to the idea that she can go with Grandma and be ok.

[peainthepod]

I'm annoyed because my midwife doesn't do house visits; I have to schlep to her office which means walking and riding the subway and since none of my cold weather clothes fit me and I'm even too fat for my maternity clothes, leaving the house sucks in general and why can't she just come here? : (I love my MW and knew this would be the deal when I hired her, but right now it sucks!)

I don't want to go anywhere or do anything or see or talk to anyone about anything. Why can't the world just leave me alone? And why won't this baby be born already? I know I'm still a week away from my due date and could even go two weeks beyond then (oh please, God, nooooooo) but I've been ready to have my body back for weeks now. I hate this. Are we allowed to hate being pregnant? I think I hate it. The thought "I am NEVER doing this again..." keeps popping into my mind.

Trying to stay positive but it isn't working very well. Pregnancy has been such a lonely thing for me.

[ICURNMama]

My best days lately are ones where I don't have to set one toenail outside of the house! I don't feel irritable, just like I want to be home. Unfortunately I'm still working full time so those days are few and far between. I just have to keep telling myself only 1.5 more weeks of work though.... unless the little one comes sooner!