Oh mama, I am so sorry to hear this. I will send love and light to you, to help you get through this.
I know it isn't the same, but my dear cousin committed suicide too, but many years ago, nearly 18 years now. We were very close, and it left me very sad for so long. We never got over it, but we all started learning how to put our lives back together again.
My prayers are with you during this difficult time.

Jyotsna
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