Please don't let my situation have any bearing on your hopes and dreams of meeting a man who will happily accept your life as it is and commit to you on the level that you need and deserve. These men are out there, do not despair. I tried dating and although it was fun and distracting it wasn't what i was looking for in my life. When this man came into my life i spent the first month of our relationship telling him i was only interested in a long term committment and i needed him to fully understand what he was getting himself into. He reassured me constantly that he wanted to be with me and my family. He promised me the world but in the face of a challenge and the opportunity for growth he just couldn't deal. I accept this. I don't like it, but i accept it. My family will grow and change and all of us will lovingly accept a new soul with no conditions. He is the one missing out, he is the one who will have to live with what he has choosen. It will be hard to trust any man after what he did to me. He was so convincing about wanting to be with my family and he fully knew my background of abuse and abandoment and he swore to never do anything like that and he wanted to protect me. The truth to all of this is to never let a man take your power. If you do not feel like the empowered, amazing woman you know that you are when you are with him then he does not deserve you. I have already raised 5 kids on my own, i welcome a new one and i know the universe is always providing.