At 12:20 last night, after nursing Hazel, I felt a large gush from my vagina. I went to the toilet and a golf ball sized clot fell out onto the floor. My pad was soaked. I changed the pad and put in a page with my OB's office. Luckily, the doc on call was my own and she called me back within 5 minutes. In that time I'd saturated another pad. I was sitting on the toilet again and had passed more clots. We decided I'd go into the ED to be evaluated.
I called my sister to come stay with our toddler and packed a cooler with the EBM I'd pumped due to lumpy engorgement. 9 day old Hazel, dh, and I got into the car with a towel between my legs. I cried the whole way in the car. Devastated my babymoon had been ruined and yet another thing had gone wrong.
The ED did not seem busy, yet it still took them more than 30 minutes to triage me after dh lost patience and said "When's someone coming? My wife's bleeding all over!" A nurse came and saw the mess. He led us into a room.
The very attractive ED doctor gave me an internal, had labs drawn, and sent me for an US that revealed retained fragments and a large clot. It was 2am forever because of daylight savings
: He consulted with my OB and she showed up at 4 am to do a D&C. Hazel had nursed twice in the ED so she slept essentially through the whole stay downstairs.
The same anesthesiologist who gave me my epidural discussed anesthesia options with my OB. They loaded me up with Versed and Fentanyl. The procedure was done on the L&D floor where I'd delivered both my daughters in the OR they normally do C-sections in. I vaguely remember the procedure.
I pumped my breasts at 6am and then slept until 9 am. Dh finger fed Hazel with a syringe and I pumped again at 9am. I felt like a truck had run over my abdomen and squeezed all my blood out through my vagina. We discharged at 12:30 today after receiving primo care and Hazel is now nursing for the first time after the procedure.
I feel robbed of a gentle birth. My babymoon ruined by bleeding. I'm done. I can't handle anything else going wrong. I can't stop crying. I need to know the rest of my postpartum experience is going to be trauma free.
Thanks for listening to me wallow in my self-pity.
I called my sister to come stay with our toddler and packed a cooler with the EBM I'd pumped due to lumpy engorgement. 9 day old Hazel, dh, and I got into the car with a towel between my legs. I cried the whole way in the car. Devastated my babymoon had been ruined and yet another thing had gone wrong.
The ED did not seem busy, yet it still took them more than 30 minutes to triage me after dh lost patience and said "When's someone coming? My wife's bleeding all over!" A nurse came and saw the mess. He led us into a room.
The very attractive ED doctor gave me an internal, had labs drawn, and sent me for an US that revealed retained fragments and a large clot. It was 2am forever because of daylight savings
: He consulted with my OB and she showed up at 4 am to do a D&C. Hazel had nursed twice in the ED so she slept essentially through the whole stay downstairs.The same anesthesiologist who gave me my epidural discussed anesthesia options with my OB. They loaded me up with Versed and Fentanyl. The procedure was done on the L&D floor where I'd delivered both my daughters in the OR they normally do C-sections in. I vaguely remember the procedure.
I pumped my breasts at 6am and then slept until 9 am. Dh finger fed Hazel with a syringe and I pumped again at 9am. I felt like a truck had run over my abdomen and squeezed all my blood out through my vagina. We discharged at 12:30 today after receiving primo care and Hazel is now nursing for the first time after the procedure.
I feel robbed of a gentle birth. My babymoon ruined by bleeding. I'm done. I can't handle anything else going wrong. I can't stop crying. I need to know the rest of my postpartum experience is going to be trauma free.
Thanks for listening to me wallow in my self-pity.
Mama I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. I'm glad all turned out okay. I'll send lots of healing thoughts your way.
Try to rest and heal, and I'm sending healthy peaceful vibes your way! 
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