hi Molly~
sorry to hear you are having a hard time.
sorry to hear you are having a hard time.
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How exactly are you diagnosed with PMDD? I have always had very bad PMS and it has gotten worse as I've gotten older. I have never talked to my Dr. about it though.
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well, last night very soon after writing i lost it...not for too long but it felt horrible.
I went to check email for a bit and left DP and our female friend hanging out and then I ended up feeling left out and feeling like I didnt know how to rejoin and be social, I started crying and feeling sad and a part of me told myself to just go hang out but the childhood issues took over I think and I felt abandonment and maybe some Post Traumatic Stress and I got really angry at him and was flipping him off and being pissed very passive agressively. I felt really really shaky and upset...cried then came out of it but I was very dissapointed that happened. Feelings of shame, defeat and weakness came over me. i really really want to keep it together! doing okay so far. although, I've had some not kind thoughts creeep in. DP told me how sorry he was that he left me out especially because he should be extra sensitive to me at this time...he was very sweet about it, not mad at all just completely loving and sweet...i am soo lucky to have him. christmas is going to be very similar to this. i feel like crying, i'm a very emo womyn right now. sigh. |
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On the different levels of pms, severe etc... I don't know how I could possibly go several months documenting to find the patern. I am so scared to have it rear it's ugly head even one more time. I know I have something, I really don't want to go another month through that hell. I am going to see my dr. on Tuesday and i will get on the pill at that time and am going to start taking B6 and other b vitamins, calcium, fish oil and continue my multi. I am hoping for some reliefe this month.
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oh man, I'm currently six days past ovulation and I feel terrible. I guess the B6 wasn't that effective after all though it does make a small difference. I just feel so sad and I'm stressed out which makes it much worse. I haven't ordered the supplements and amino acids that I wanted to because I'm unable to make any decisions when I feel so depressed. I'm probably afraid it wont be effective after all. Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm stupid for not trying SSRI's but the thought of medicine makes me to scared to even consider it. My DP is taking paxil (very low dose) but he is unable to stop because the he gets these horrible neurological symptoms. The risk of sexual side effects scare me to. I know paxil are worse than others but still.... I need to get off my butt and order some 5-HTP and a few other things.
Just need to vent and perhaps a BTDT hug would be nice.... I hope you are all doing okay? Anne |
take a deeeep breath
i know its hard to feel it now but it will pass you will feel good again....

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Mystic~mama: Thanks for your sweet and supportive reply. Yes, I do take calcium. I take all the vitamins and minerals recommended for the PMS/PMDD and it does help - just not enough. Two years ago I was having suicidal thoughts every cycle and now I'm depressed, anxious and very very tired but at least not suicidal - that happens very rarely now. BTW I do feel a bit better today. You are right that it really helps to stay active one way or another. Otherwise I sink in to a horrible funk.
BTW: I have bought access to a natural treatment database. It's all research based and all recommendations are divided into different categories depending on the level of evidence. PM and I'll gladly share the password. It has tons of info about treating all kinds of disease and problems naturally. Anyone here who have used Julia Ross' approach from the mood cure??? That is what I'm trying to do with the amino acids I want to start taking. It seems like we have all experienced some kind of problems in our relationship due to PMDD. In my case my DP can find it quite hard to even look at me when I'm depressed. I totally get that. It must be quite weird because I'm very happy during the first half of my cycle. During the first part of our relationship he wasn't terribly supportive but that changed after he found out how bad it is. He's a doctor and suggested that I'd give st. johns wort a try. Gotta go now. |

: I feel like I have been suffering with this in silence for so many years thinking I was going crazy. For me, I get a day of complete crying, depression, sadness around the time I ovulate. Then about 1 week before emo I get sad, lonely, bouts of crying, and depression. It seems as if all of my life's issues (past and present) come up at this time. I could never figure out "what was wrong with me" that I couldn't "move on" from issues because everything creeps up on me at this time.



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