My brother, my only sibling, was killed in Iraq almost 8 months ago. I'm in the depression stage of grief. My doctor wants me on medicine. I refuse.
My grandmother is dying. Her cancer has spread to her kidneys, liver, lungs, bones, and brain. She's dying. I'm seeing her this weekend, probably for the last time. She wants to name me the POA and Executor of her estate, instead of her husband or 3 daughters!!! I talked to her in the hospital yesterday and she talked like a little girl. She was fine (except had lung cancer) two weeks ago.
My grandfather will have to bury his grandson and his wife of 55 years in the same year! My heart is breaking for him.
Prop 8 in CA passed and now my marriage is hanging in the balance. I won't be able to relax and feel ok about it for years, until I know whether it will be anulled or get to stay legal.
My best friend's partner doesn't want us to talk on email as much because she's threatened by me. She is my ONLY friend and lives 2000 miles away.
I'm lonely, depressed, and I can't take anymore let downs or bad news!!! I'm not sleeping, not eating, barely functioning at work.
I just wish the pain would go away!!!! I'm so sad because I know that if I didn't have my wife, I would have found my way to my brother in heaven by now.
Can I have some hugs please? How much can people take before they crumble? Am I really as strong as people say? Or will I break? How do you know when you're about to break? Do I start to get worried only if I started "making plans" to end it? I know I won't. But how do I make myself keep going?
My grandmother is dying. Her cancer has spread to her kidneys, liver, lungs, bones, and brain. She's dying. I'm seeing her this weekend, probably for the last time. She wants to name me the POA and Executor of her estate, instead of her husband or 3 daughters!!! I talked to her in the hospital yesterday and she talked like a little girl. She was fine (except had lung cancer) two weeks ago.
My grandfather will have to bury his grandson and his wife of 55 years in the same year! My heart is breaking for him.
Prop 8 in CA passed and now my marriage is hanging in the balance. I won't be able to relax and feel ok about it for years, until I know whether it will be anulled or get to stay legal.
My best friend's partner doesn't want us to talk on email as much because she's threatened by me. She is my ONLY friend and lives 2000 miles away.
I'm lonely, depressed, and I can't take anymore let downs or bad news!!! I'm not sleeping, not eating, barely functioning at work.
I just wish the pain would go away!!!! I'm so sad because I know that if I didn't have my wife, I would have found my way to my brother in heaven by now.
Can I have some hugs please? How much can people take before they crumble? Am I really as strong as people say? Or will I break? How do you know when you're about to break? Do I start to get worried only if I started "making plans" to end it? I know I won't. But how do I make myself keep going?
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I don't follow politics but even if your marriage gets annulled, you and your wife still have the same love for each other as you do today. Maybe you could take a trip up to BC Canada and get married here. 
A million hugs and prayers to you and your family. I've not been in the situations you have, but I know you are strong enough to handle all of this. I used to be in the Army a long time ago and we would go on incredibly long marches with packs uphills and mountains. Seriously, sometimes it would just seem as if no end is in sight after marching for and I would wonder how in the world I could keep walking when I hurt so much and was so tired. In such organizations as the military, it is a point of failure to stop and get picked up by the medics. So despite my pain, hunger, tiredness.... I just kept putting one foot in front of the other, literally. I know emotional pain and physical pain are very different but sometimes the way out is the same. If you just keep going forward, one moment at a time, one step, one small victory or moment of joy will sneak in there on you. And someday all this will be far behind you. You can handle this. I am so sorry for your recent losses. 
