My baby is gone...

[fantesia28]

It seems that my uneasy feelings all this week were right on. When I went to my doctor's appt. on Thursday he did an U/S and found no heart beat and apparently my baby had stopped growing about a week after my last scan when we had seen the heartbeat. I went Friday to confirm at the hospital and late yesterday had a D&C since apparently my body was not picking up on the loss.

I am heartbroken, shocked and can hardly believe that this happened. It's crazy how quickly such a miracle can be snatched away. I keep thinking and wondering if there was something that I did wrong... was it bad that I had taken Zofran for my horrible morning sickness, was it the early U/S scan that I had, did I do something else wrong? Was it bad that I took a bath - did I get too hot? I am sure it's none of the above, but I still wish I knew what happened.

At any rate... I am hoping to try again soon... please say a prayer that we have a safe and healthy pregnancy next time around.

Good luck to everyone here, though I may not be around much, I will be thinking of all of you! I may stop in time to time to see how everyone is doing. Wishing you all lots of healthy beautiful babies next year!! Thank you for all of your support!!

[willowsmom]

omg Fan

I'm so sorry, honey.

[summerbaby]

Oh Fan, I'm so so sorry for your loss.
I'm sure that none of those things made a difference.
Take care of yourself

[Girlo]

Fan.... I've been in your shoes all too often. With my pg before having my son, I had an u/s at 6wks - totally normal with a strong hb. Went back at 12 wks because my midwife couldn't find a hb with the doppler - gone at around 8 weeks. It was explained to me then that the transition around 8 weeks is a tough one and lots of little ones don't make it. That's when the placenta and umbilical cord get set up and attached and if there's anything going on there, it just doesn't work out.

Something else I've learned (after 7 losses) is that there's NOTHING you did to cause this.....it just happened. It also doesn't matter how sick you are or how dark your pg test was.....sometimes it just happens.

Take gentle care of yourself and please let any guilt or blame you might be feeling go out to the ether, where it belongs. This was NOT your fault and you'll be holding your little one in your arms in no time at all.

[MOMYS]

(((hugs)))

[groovynaturemama]

i'm so sorry

[Ianthe]

Oh Fan



I'm so sorry!!!! You did NOTHING wrong. Please don't blame yourself. Take care of yourself honey.

[Shy0717]

Oh honey I'm so sorry.

[BlissfullyLoving]

I am so sorry.

[happyhippimama]

I am sorry.

[candyapplez]

not in your ddc but sending love and prayers!

[amandaleigh37]

I'm so sorry for your loss

My first pregnancy ended similarly... I began bleeding at 12w (just when I thought I was "in the clear") and an u/s showed that the baby stopped growing around 6w It absolutely devastated me. And has left me apprehensive about these early weeks ever since...

Wishing you & your family peace, health & healing in these weeks to come - and a healthy pregnancy next time

[Amydoula]

I am so so sorry for your loss.

[seafox]

I am so sorry. My last pregnancy was a missed m/c too, they are tough to deal with. I kept thinking of things I did too that might have affected it, but its rarely the case that you could have changed the outcome.

wishing you a speedy recovery and a healthy next pregnancy . . .

[lachingona1]

Oh, I am very sorry

[heatherh]

I'm very sorry.

[midnightmommy]

I'm so very sorry.

[stanleymama]

So sorry! You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[DevaMajka]

I'm so sorry

[lil_miss_understood]

I'm so sorry for your loss.