My Dad died suddenly almost a year ago. The funeral was a fiasco and I ended up losing ties to all my family. All because my husband was his favorite of all of us. My siblings could not take it and banished us from all events. They changed the times of everything so we could not be there. I havn't spoken to anyone since, and I don't want to.
I was doing fine then yesturday I looked at the calendar. He died December 6, and it is fast approching. My children still ask if they will ever see Granpa again. He visits me in my dreams. I am terrified of going to sleep because I fear I might not want to wake up if he is there. My thought are not rational at the moment and my vision is blured through tears. I can't stop the tears. They have been going strong for over an hour now. I just want my dad. I was not ready for him to go. My children were not ready. My husband loved him better than his own dad. Why would one so loved be taken without any warning. No one had a chance to say good bye.
I was doing fine then yesturday I looked at the calendar. He died December 6, and it is fast approching. My children still ask if they will ever see Granpa again. He visits me in my dreams. I am terrified of going to sleep because I fear I might not want to wake up if he is there. My thought are not rational at the moment and my vision is blured through tears. I can't stop the tears. They have been going strong for over an hour now. I just want my dad. I was not ready for him to go. My children were not ready. My husband loved him better than his own dad. Why would one so loved be taken without any warning. No one had a chance to say good bye.
