Originally Posted by BrandiRhoades
Last year I was in a hospital on suicide watch. I told my therapist I really think I need a facility again. I'm not suicidal, but I'm just so overwhelmed that I'm spiraling down. He said that there's a center here called a "crisis stabilization unit." It's basically for people who aren't in life-threatening situations but are having a difficult time. They have counselors who meet with you throughout the day to help with preparing to get your life back on track. Has anyone been to one of these places? Part of me wants to go, and I've worked out arrangements for the kids if I do go, but part of me just thinks the day-to-day crap will be here when I get back.
I've been cutting this past week, which has hubby ready to send me somewhere. My ILs offered to let me stay at their house for a few days, and MIL would take care of a lot of stuff with the kids. My mom called last night and offered to let the kids come to her house for a week so I can get it together. I'm not sure if I'd be better off taking one of those offers. Sometimes I just want to check into a hotel for a couple of days to clear my head. It'd be easier and cheaper than the hospitalization option.
Have you tried Zyprexa Zydis? It's accute & works within 10 minutes. It's expensive, however it's by far cheaper than hospitalization (or a hotel room). Your psych should have samples for you & those last a long time. You only have to take 1/4 tablet at a time & 1/4 additional as needed. It's really a miracle.
Are you on any other meds? Are you sleeping? Hospitalization should be the last resort of all last resorts. All they can do there is provide you with room & board while you get your meds sorted out. Yes, it's a "break," but if you can take Zyprexa Zydis until you're stabilized with the right med combination, you will be doing yourself and your family a huge favor. Remember, your family needs you and you need them. Being there for them and feeling like you have purpose will make you feel much better than feeling like you don't have any control over your life & need to be hospitalized.
Cutting is a behavioral issue, not a psychiatric one. Hospitalization or meds can't help you with that, only you can. Therapy sounds like a great idea for you. Stop cutting immediately. When you want to cut, look at your children. You don't want to cut, I know it. Don't cut anymore.
It's wonderful that you're taking care of your children. If you can get ahold of some Zyprexa Zydis & stabilize yourself while living family life as normal you will be much happier. Having the support of your in laws is a great blessing. Maybe you could have them come over often while you do things like run errands for yourself & take naps.
Do you ever do things for yourself? Since you're already considering spending the money to be hospitalized, consider getting a massage or taking a yoga class. They'll be much better for your body mind & spirit.
Try making a list of activities & interests you had before you felt bad. Try approaching them one by one with baby steps & see if you spark your interest again. It's gardening season... could you and your children plant some flowers or seeds in a pot? Or adopt a kitten? They bring endless joy.
I hope you feel better soon