Having a hard day and it's only 10 am! - Page 2

[Amber Lion]

Thanks, it's so very freeing to know I can nurse anywhere too! Now I just need to master nursing in the wrap...

[Amber Lion]

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I never, ever in a million years, would have imagined that nursing would be so difficult or that I'd come to resent feeding my little girl, or that the thing I looked forward to the most (nursing) while pg would be the ONE thing that has me in tears of frustration and desperation. I never knew one's nipples could hurt so bad and that it could effect one's perspective so much. I was ANGRY at her this morning for the first time, really angry, and it was darn right scary.

All last night was a fight about her latch. If I managed to get a good one, she'd change it. I'd pop her off, try again, pop her off, try again... until she'd just plain refuse to get back on and I KNOW she wasn't full b/c my boobs were still full of milk and that'd make it even harder next time. Either I let her eat her fill while it hurts, or I pop her on and off till she gives up and it hurts anyways but she's not satisfied and wants more within the hour.

And then suddenly, the latch will be good. But I didn't do anything differently and nothing looks different from all the other times. But the next time it'll be bad again.

I hate to keep harping about it, but honestly it's so crazy-making that we can't seem to figure out something that is natural and shouldn't hurt. I can't even tell if it's hurting b/c the last latch was wrong or if this one is wrong sometimes. She's been so fussy too and I know it's b/c she's just giving up hungry b/c she loses interest after me popping her off so many times. Which makes it even more difficult to deal with her.

I just really, really, really, need this to stop hurting.

[ferretfan]

it will stop hurting i promise. you're doing great for having put up with the pain for this long, many do not. did you get pump? have you tried switching positions? (football, cradle, side lying etc).

after the initial 6 weeks of hell, dd1 and i had a beautiful nursing relationship. she nursed for 2.5 years. she only stopped because the milk dried up from dd2's pg. every second of the pain was worth it, because it cemented our bond and made her strong and healthy. hang in there mama, give your boobies a break with the pump and give yourself a break. i used to feel like swatting dd1 off my breast all the time, it was maddening. plus my mum was over from the uk and kept telling me to quit and give her formula : i havent blistered and cracked my nipples to all hell and back to quit now!

you're awesome

[jlbaby]

Originally Posted by ferretfan

it will stop hurting i promise...
every second of the pain was worth it, because it cemented our bond and made her strong and healthy. hang in there mama, give your boobies a break with the pump and give yourself a break.

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i'm so sorry it hurts so much - i completely forgot how much breastfeeding hurts until these first weeks with DD....it can be so exhausting and frustrating. we all have bad days, and it's OK to be angry. i remember being amazed with DS that someone so tiny could cause me so much pain! but it definitely does get better, and the bond it creates is truly life-changing. i nursed him for 26 months and after the rough beginning, loved every minute of it.

i hope you get to talk to your LC friend, maybe she will have some good tips for you? a good friend of mine had to pump and feed her son with a plastic syringe for his first 3 months because he couldn't latch well. it was such a hard time for her, but once they made it through, he nursed wonderfully for 20 months. now he's 5 years old, and she doesn't really remember that time with the syringe!! please hang in there, and know that you're doing your best!!

i really hope that it gets better for you SOON.