~Lara Croft~
11-24-2003, 11:36 AM
Hello all! I'm very newly pregnant (5wks + 3days) I have a son(7 yrs old) a daughter (4 on 1/22) and my youngest daughter born 10/02/02 and passed 10/08/02(you can read her story in the Pregnancy & Birth loss forum "My sweet Vanessa")
We started talking about ttc a couple of weeks after what would have been Vanessa's 1st b-day.We decided to start trying on that next cycle. AF showed 10/17,I started charting my temp.My temp went from 97.3 on 10/30 to 97.8 on 10/31. I took a First Response hpt 4 days before AF was supposed to show and got a very faint postive.Over the course of the next 5 days I took 3 more tests and got positives with all of them,increasingly darker with each one.
We are very excited! But scared too. I feel like I have so far to go before I can have this baby in my arms.We weren't sure when we were going to tell family.At first we thought we might wait.But I felt like,I wanted all of the positive thoughts and prayers that I can get,so we told our family 3 days after that 1st faint positive.I wrote a poem and brought it to each of them to read.No one knew we were even thinking about ttc,so needless to say they were surprised.A lot of hugs and tears! Here is the poem:
My Journeys As A Mother And Wife
I have embarked upon the journey
of motherhood more than once.
What a wonderous miracle!
A person created in just 9 months!
Every child born to me
unique in their own way.
I am thankful for my children
every minute of every day.
My first child born to me...
a son....
so handsome and so strong!
My second child born....
a daughter...
so beautiful with hair so long!
My third child born to me...
my precious daughter Vanessa Lane.
Only a moment in my arms
how I wish she could have stayed.
And although I can not touch her
my love for her will NEVER fade!
Each one of my sweet children
so precious and so dear.
My angel who is far from me
and my children who are near.
My journeys into motherhood
have been the best times in my life.
The things I like most about myself
are that I'm a mother and a wife.
It seems like only yesterday
my role as "mommy" first began.
Now here I am all these years later
embarking on that journey once again.
Another sweet amazing journey
as a mother and wife.
For you see...
in just 8 short months
I'll welcome another child into my life.
(estimated due date:July 24,2004!!)
The reactions on their faces when they were reading the ending of the poem was great! This little one is due exactly one week before my b-day! Right now,I'm very paranoid about miscarriage.I had two in between the births of DS and DD#1. The first was at 8 weeks and the second at 10 weeks.I find myself going to the bathroom constantly checking for bleeding.I just want everyhthing to be OK.
Sending positive thoughts and prayers to all of you!!
We started talking about ttc a couple of weeks after what would have been Vanessa's 1st b-day.We decided to start trying on that next cycle. AF showed 10/17,I started charting my temp.My temp went from 97.3 on 10/30 to 97.8 on 10/31. I took a First Response hpt 4 days before AF was supposed to show and got a very faint postive.Over the course of the next 5 days I took 3 more tests and got positives with all of them,increasingly darker with each one.
We are very excited! But scared too. I feel like I have so far to go before I can have this baby in my arms.We weren't sure when we were going to tell family.At first we thought we might wait.But I felt like,I wanted all of the positive thoughts and prayers that I can get,so we told our family 3 days after that 1st faint positive.I wrote a poem and brought it to each of them to read.No one knew we were even thinking about ttc,so needless to say they were surprised.A lot of hugs and tears! Here is the poem:
My Journeys As A Mother And Wife
I have embarked upon the journey
of motherhood more than once.
What a wonderous miracle!
A person created in just 9 months!
Every child born to me
unique in their own way.
I am thankful for my children
every minute of every day.
My first child born to me...
a son....
so handsome and so strong!
My second child born....
a daughter...
so beautiful with hair so long!
My third child born to me...
my precious daughter Vanessa Lane.
Only a moment in my arms
how I wish she could have stayed.
And although I can not touch her
my love for her will NEVER fade!
Each one of my sweet children
so precious and so dear.
My angel who is far from me
and my children who are near.
My journeys into motherhood
have been the best times in my life.
The things I like most about myself
are that I'm a mother and a wife.
It seems like only yesterday
my role as "mommy" first began.
Now here I am all these years later
embarking on that journey once again.
Another sweet amazing journey
as a mother and wife.
For you see...
in just 8 short months
I'll welcome another child into my life.
(estimated due date:July 24,2004!!)
The reactions on their faces when they were reading the ending of the poem was great! This little one is due exactly one week before my b-day! Right now,I'm very paranoid about miscarriage.I had two in between the births of DS and DD#1. The first was at 8 weeks and the second at 10 weeks.I find myself going to the bathroom constantly checking for bleeding.I just want everyhthing to be OK.
Sending positive thoughts and prayers to all of you!!