Feeling sad tonite

[Brandonsmama]

I just finished reading the article in Mothering about pregnancy and loss. I am crying as I sit here. I had a lot of miscarriages, about 6, I think. I feel that I have healed fully, because my last one was twins, at 11 wks, and it forced me to really grieve and begin to heal from all the losses. I know that these tears are healing, not the really angry, explosive feelings I used to have, but it almost scares me to have this reaction, I guess I am afraid it means I am not really healed. I really don't believe this, but it does cross my mind.
I just need some support from all you mammas tonite. I look at my beautiful 6 yr. old ds, and I remind myself how truly blessed I am, especially having him at 43 after years of infertility.
My dh is sooo wonderful, but sometimes this particular pain feels so lonely and private, and I know he tries to understand, but I am not sure he really can.
Thanks for your good thoughts.

[Arduinna]

(( hugs)) to you. I am still waiting for my issue to arrive (hope it comes soon, I hate seeing it at the store and not having mine)

I'm sure I will react the same way. I am so sorry for your losses. I feel that no matter how much we have grieved, accepted and moved on in life, we never forget. And stories like these just bring it all back, remind us of what might have been.

I have a beautiful dd 12 but I will still never forget the baby I lost 3 years ago. My dh is wonderful too, and says he thinks about our lost baby often. But sometimes I wonder. When it is the time around the anniversarys and I'm really sad he asks why? Sometimes I can't believe I even have to say why? How can he not know why? Does he even remember? Is it even real to him? Or was it all a dream that he woke up from that I never can?

I don't know, just please know you aren't alone.

[indiegirl]

I don't know if anything I say can make you feel better, but I know that your spirit children were here for a reason--however breif--and filled a space in your life that is very special. Their lessons may not be known now, but i find solace (and I hope you do, too) that "more will be revealed."

Much love to you tonight....

((((((hugs)))))))))

[lisamarie]

Just got down reading your post, my heart goes out to you. Just sending you a hug and know that you aren't alone.

Hugs~

Lisa:hug

[auld reekie]

:hug :hug :hug :hug :hug :hug :hug :hug Brandonsmama please know you are not alone .we are all thinking about you. My first child died in utero at ten and a half weeks,so i can understand your pain.crying is good,it is a way of healing.
Do you think planting a tree in memory of your babies would help in any way?
thinking of you:love :love

[Jacque Savageau]

I don't have my copy yet either. I cant' wait to read the article.

Greif is a funny thing. It seems to creep up on us when we least expect it.

Someone once said that when we loose a friend we loose our past when we loose a child we loose our future. I think that's so true. The greif is very different.

Your feeling sad because you're letting go of a dream and that's so understandable. Let yourself feel and move through this. I don't think we're every 'done' with greif, we just find a place for it in our hearts and our lives.

I'll keep you in my thoughts.

[LiamnEmma]

I have my issue, but came here first tonight, I'll go read it now (two miscarriages here, maybe I'm avoiding?), bu first, :grouphug