Is anyone else scared?

[ctdoula]

Hi! I found out on Sunday I'm pregnant after infertility treatments (2 rounds of clomid that were not sucessful in making me ovulate & 1 round of injectible meds & IUI that worked). I confirmed with a blood test yesterday (HCG 103 at day 14 past O). I'm so scared about losing this baby. I remember being like this in the beginning with my daughter too. But I keep thinking, if I tell anyone, change my signature, etc that I'll jinx myself. I'm having another blood test on Sat to make sure the HCG levels are going up as they should (I had no problems w/my last pregnancy, just have a hard time getting pregnant).

Am I the only one who's nervous. Literally my 1st thought after the + test was "OMG, what if I have a miscarriage". I think because it's SO hard for us to GET here, that the thought of having to go back to do it again is overwhelming. I'm definately feeling symptoms already which is reassuring.

Please tell me I'm not the only neurotic one.

[jessikate]

Yeah, every little twinge has me wondering. I'm just telling myself that it's just things growing, stretching, and shifting, and that my body is doing amazing work right now.

I'm not feeling much in the way of symptoms, just breast tenderness and sleepiness (so why am I up at 2:15 am?). I didn't have any ms with Grace, though, and I don't expect to this time either. I hope that's the case.

Just concentrate on the amazing work your body is doing, and trust that you will birth a big healthy baby next spring!

[aprildawn]

yeah. i was constantly worried about m/c with my first, after the risk of m/c was over i was constantly worried about feeling her move.

with this one we were going to keep it to ourselves until we had our first appointment. however, two people asked me out of the blue if i was pregnant! i coudn't lie about it, so now lots of people know.

we got pregnant super easy. i wasn't even expecting to be pregnant so soon. that makes me feel like it was too easy and now something bad has to happen. it's silly.

glad you asked! i thought i was just being a horrible worry wart!

[Green4God]

The thought of m/c is definitely clouding the joy of my first trimester, but I wouldn't have expected any differently since I just m/c'ed in April and I haven't delivered any children yet. Having a little of everything symptom-wise helps, but I was pretty much feeling like this last time. I don't think I'll relax until sometime in the 2nd trimester since I m/c'ed at 12 weeks.

[sleet76]

I think it is totally normal to be nervous. I am a little nervous, but I think I do a good job at keeping it in check. I realized after the m/c I had in January that there is nothing that I can do to make the situation turn to how I want it to. Things are going to happen how they will, and I will go with the flow--smoothly and easily or with with lots of pain and discomfort.

Plus, it isn't just the few weeks of a pregnancy you can worry about, or the first few months, or even just pregnancy in general. You can also worry yourself sick over labor, once the baby is here--"is she ill, etc..", when they start going to friends' houses to play, once they can drive, and so on... I decided to accept the idea that my children aren't "mine", they are placed under my care for the beginning of their own personal life journeys, and they will experience what they are meant to experience. (as will I...) I hope that our shared experiences are all pleasant, but I choose to accept that I cannot control everything, and that puts me in a place that allows me to just do my best to be a safe, loving parent, and enjoy the ride.

Sorry for the long ramble--I don't know if that is what you wanted to hear, but it is how I feel on the issue.

[Green4God]

Stacy - ITA. In fact, it is the only thing keeping me sane right now, knowing that God is in control and He won't give me more than I can bear. Being able to see the good side of not having my baby that would have been born in October, I am able to realize that God knows all things and I should trust His timing and loving control. Not trying to offend anyone, just how I feel about my situation.

[Marysmama]

First of all CONGRATUALATIONS! I want to say, that I've shared your feelings about miscarriage. Now that I'm in the second trimester, I look back and wish I had been happier during the first trimester.

I know it's hard. But, this is what you've been working so hard for. You are pregnant! You did it. Be overjoyed.

[ctdoula]

Thank you all SO MUCH!!! :love I honestly feel much better hearing I'm not the only "nervous nelly". I have no reason to think things aren't going as they should, and am now going to enjoy this time as much as I can!!


Plus, it isn't just the few weeks of a pregnancy you can worry about, or the first few months, or even just pregnancy in general. You can also worry yourself sick over labor, once the baby is here--"is she ill, etc..", when they start going to friends' houses to play, once they can drive, and so on... I decided to accept the idea that my children aren't "mine", they are placed under my care for the beginning of their own personal life journeys, and they will experience what they are meant to experience. (as will I...) I hope that our shared experiences are all pleasant, but I choose to accept that I cannot control everything, and that puts me in a place that allows me to just do my best to be a safe, loving parent, and enjoy the ride.



This is SO true, and is something I tell expectant couples in my childbirth classes (of course why would I listen to my own advice :eyesroll )

[gracesmom0801]

I'm nervous and don't know if I like my dh's philosophy this time around. We told people right away about Grace, but he wants to wait to tell ANYONE until I'M SHOWING!!!!! How can I keep my mouth shut that long! I'll go crazy!!!! :eyesroll

[aprildawn]

we just got home from church and turns out a couple people i did tell didn't realize we weren't telling everyone. so they told a couple of people. now it seems like lots of folks know.

sigh...

and just as i was starting to feel less nervous.

[sarasprings]

Congrats! During my first pregnancy, I worried about miscarriage and we didn't tell anyone (except two friends) until a month into the second trimester when we felt we couldn't keep it a secret because people would be mad when they found out how far along I was.

I went into the hospital at 6 weeks with severe cramps and bleeding. The doctors and nurses all thought I was going to m/c, but I didn't. But, now I'm wondering if maybe there were two and one miscarried?

I think I'm more worried about losing a baby at the end after we've had so long to bond.