Ms. Mom
09-08-2002, 09:42 PM
Today would have been my fathers 65th birthday. However he took his life on January 4, 2000.
The last 2 weeks I keep seeing men who look like him with knobby knees, shorts that are too tight, t-shirt, baseball cap and mustach. I look at them and have to shake my head because I keep thinking I see him.
I still have dreams of him in the casket moving his mouth trying to speak - but never hearing the words.
A friend of mine does a Sunday night radio show called Big Sonic Heaven. He's playing a This Mortal Coil song in my dad's honor right now. It's so sad. We played it at the grave site.
I've lit some rosemarry candles. At his funeral we picked rosemarry from his garden and created a beautiful 'alter' next to his casket. I remember so well the smell of Rosemarry. It's become a favorite smell of mine now.
Just reflecting on a man who had so much to give, but was unable to fight his inner demons. His demons are gone now :crying
You have travled so many miles
Across unchartered terrain
You have walked with the living
and danced with the dead.
The last 2 weeks I keep seeing men who look like him with knobby knees, shorts that are too tight, t-shirt, baseball cap and mustach. I look at them and have to shake my head because I keep thinking I see him.
I still have dreams of him in the casket moving his mouth trying to speak - but never hearing the words.
A friend of mine does a Sunday night radio show called Big Sonic Heaven. He's playing a This Mortal Coil song in my dad's honor right now. It's so sad. We played it at the grave site.
I've lit some rosemarry candles. At his funeral we picked rosemarry from his garden and created a beautiful 'alter' next to his casket. I remember so well the smell of Rosemarry. It's become a favorite smell of mine now.
Just reflecting on a man who had so much to give, but was unable to fight his inner demons. His demons are gone now :crying
You have travled so many miles
Across unchartered terrain
You have walked with the living
and danced with the dead.