lovinmama
09-20-2002, 07:07 AM
I am so glad this board is here, I have never really had to deal with such a personal loss until I got the news Tuesday. I am still so much in shock and just cant believe it. When will I wake up from this nightmare? Today my family is supposed to be hanging out with our wonderful friend, he is supposed to be staying a few days with us, helping us move and just being together. We are supposed to be talking about the baby he is trying to conceive with his girlfriend and about how long it will take me to get to the birth from my house.....Instead I am getting ready to start out on the 5 hour journey to his funeral. Sometimes things are so unfair.
We just bought a new house and even though he was miles away I feel like everything in life I did for him, I feel no motivation to do all the painting and fixing up I was so excited about a few days ago...whats the point if we cant share it with him? This is how I am feeling right now. This is such an exciting time for my children and they were so much looking forward to seeing their buddy and now this. I had just talked to him hours earlier about him and his DP getting pregnant, me being there to support them while they bring their baby into the world, circumcision, how much fun we were going to have this weekend, moving, swimming in the river, and he told me, "well we better get off the phone cause you are going to be sick of me after this weekend together" I said " I cant get sick of you".
Later that night he laid down in bed and passed on at the age of 30.
This pain is terrible, why? why? why?
Thanks so much for listening!
Racheal
We just bought a new house and even though he was miles away I feel like everything in life I did for him, I feel no motivation to do all the painting and fixing up I was so excited about a few days ago...whats the point if we cant share it with him? This is how I am feeling right now. This is such an exciting time for my children and they were so much looking forward to seeing their buddy and now this. I had just talked to him hours earlier about him and his DP getting pregnant, me being there to support them while they bring their baby into the world, circumcision, how much fun we were going to have this weekend, moving, swimming in the river, and he told me, "well we better get off the phone cause you are going to be sick of me after this weekend together" I said " I cant get sick of you".
Later that night he laid down in bed and passed on at the age of 30.
This pain is terrible, why? why? why?
Thanks so much for listening!
Racheal