Ups and Downs

[*bejeweled*]

We haven't yet told my DD, who is 2 1/2 that I am pregnant. This morning, she laid on my belly and said, "Baby, Baby". We were dumbfounded, so we asked her, "Do you remember when you were a baby in there?" and she responded, "I'm not a baby. I'm a big girl". Then proceeded to point at my belly and say with a big grin, "Baby! Baby!"

I'm amazed that she can sense the life growing inside of me. Has anyone else experienced anything like this?

I am so emotional today. :happyt: :( I got a phone call from the drs. office and the nurse said my Hcg levels are 1,607. The doctor was looking for 6,000 or above. So, I'm a little disheartened because I'm still spotting since yesterday........

[celesterra]

Faith, I am so sorry. :hug I really hope everything is ok. Please keep us posted.

I'm having a hard day, too, which I guess is why I haven't posted yet. Nothing going on really, I am just having one of those weary, weary days, and I am hungry and feeling like a super grouch to boot. :irked: The uncertainty of these weeks seems to overshadow the moments of joy.

[*bejeweled*]

It's so hard, and in moments like this, I have to remind myself that this is when having faith counts. If it is God's will, this baby will be born happy and healthy. I just wonder what His will is. But through faith, all things are possible.

Thank you for responding Celeste. I hope that one day soon we'll both be able to look back at these posts and be glad that things are better. :hug

[celesterra]

I'm right there wth you, Bjwld. I try to shift my thoughts from fear and doubt to love and trust. It's been such a part of this process for me, I feel like I should have it mastered already! I'm doing a lot of praying, too. I hope you guys won't mind me sharing this one that I've been using (I'd love to read what you use, as well!)


"Create in me a pure heart, O my God, and renew a tranquil conscience within me, O my Hope! Through the spirit of power confirm Thou me in Thy Cause, O my Best-Beloved, and by the light of Thy glory reveal unto me Thy path, O Thou the Goal of my desire! Through the power of Thy transcendent might lift me up unto the heaven of Thy holiness, O Source of my being, and by the breezes of Thine eternity gladden me, O Thou Who art my God! Let Thine everlasting melodies breathe tranquillity on me, O my Companion, and let the riches of Thine ancient countenance deliver me from all except Thee, O my Master, and let the tidings of the revelation of Thine incorruptible Essence bring me joy, O Thou Who art the most manifest of the manifest and the most hidden of the hidden!"

[*bejeweled*]

Celeste, that is a beautiful prayer. I haven't been praying a specific prayer, but rather talking to God and trusting that His will be done.

Faith

[norasmom]

Faith-

I'm sorry to hear the down's of your news. I'm glad you're able to find solace in your faith.

I did want to say that your dd's statement was adorable. I do believe that little one's can intuit things.

Sending warm thoughts and ((hugs)) your way!

[celestialdreamer]

:hug I'll say a prayer for you and your baby. When was the last time you had a HCG level done? I remember with my dd I had one done early on, but then I had another one done 2 weeks later and it wasn't what I expected it to be. So we did a repeat 3 days later and it was increasing like it should be and my dd is now a very healthy toddler! Remember that one level on its own doesn't tell much, they need to be done about 3 days apart.

That is so cool that your dd seems to 'sense' the baby. My dd started saying these rambling 'sentences' (she doesn't know very many words) that always ended with the word 'baby'. This happened right around the time we found out about #2! It kinda freaked me out, but I thought it was pretty cool.

Please rest and drink lots of water. I know how scary it is to have spotting, I've had it with both pregnancies (but more with this one). Sending lots of :sticky vibes!

[*bejeweled*]

Thank you so much. I just got off the phone with the doctor and he told me that because my Hcg level was 1,607 at 7 weeks that it was not "a good pregnancy" and I am having a miscarriage. I don't believe this.

Can he make such a determination with one blood draw? I was under the impression that it took at least a series of blood draws in order to draw a conclusion. He told me to wait for the miscarriage, but I am going to get my scheduled ultrasound in the morning. I will not give up hope.

I have also read that some normal pregnancies will have low levels of Hcg initially but go on to deliver healthy babies.

I am prayerful.

Faith

:hug I'll say a prayer for you and your baby. When was the last time you had a HCG level done? I remember with my dd I had one done early on, but then I had another one done 2 weeks later and it wasn't what I expected it to be. So we did a repeat 3 days later and it was increasing like it should be and my dd is now a very healthy toddler! Remember that one level on its own doesn't tell much, they need to be done about 3 days apart.

That is so cool that your dd seems to 'sense' the baby. My dd started saying these rambling 'sentences' (she doesn't know very many words) that always ended with the word 'baby'. This happened right around the time we found out about #2! It kinda freaked me out, but I thought it was pretty cool.

Please rest and drink lots of water. I know how scary it is to have spotting, I've had it with both pregnancies (but more with this one). Sending lots of :sticky vibes!

[celesterra]

Faith, what a scary situation. Doctors can be such jerks sometimes!

I'm not giving up hope for you either, and will wait to hear the u/s results in the morning! :fingersx: :fingersx: :fingersx: :fingersx:

[mommabear]

Faith: I am sending hugs, prayers, and sticky dust your way. Peace.

[celestialdreamer]

Wow, that Dr. sounds like a jerk! I was just reading on www.betabase.info (http://www.betabase.info) and it even said that you can't tell about viability from just one level. Is it also possible you might be a little off on your dates? Even if thats not the case, its still too early to say anything until you get your u/s! I will pray and send you lots of :sticky dust tonight! Please let us know what happens when you get the chance. :Hug

[squeakermansmom]

Faith :hug i'm sorry you're going thru this. please keep us posted. :hug

[zion]

there is such a wide range of normal. and like rebecca said your date could be off a little. I think it was a little premature of him to say anything like that so early and after only one level. :hug :fingersx: !!keep us posted!!

[AdinaL]

HUGE range of normal. I think for my first test the range of normal was 57-500...i mean really. :hug Hopefully things will look good.

[*bejeweled*]

Hi Ladies,
We received sad news this morning. Our ultrasound showed no heartbeat, not even a fetal pole. Had me wondering, did I make this all up? But then we saw the little black spot that is the gestational sac. Just nothing in it. :(

I was hoping to stick around here a little longer. You all are a great bunch and this due date club is the best.

I realize that this was not God's will. Hopefully He will bless us with another child someday---just not at this time.

I plan on hugging DD even more tonight. :love What a blessing our children are.

I wish you all the best---wonderful pregnancies and beautiful babies. I plan on having the same---in due time.

Love,

*Bejeweled*

[celesterra]

Bejeweled,

I can't say how sorry I am for your loss. :crying I'll really miss you on this forum, and pray that you join another very soon.

:grouphug

love,
celeste

[*bejeweled*]

Celeste,
Thank you for being there for me. Your support has meant so much.

I look forward to hearing good news about you and your baby. Faith, Faith, Faith.

Love, *Bejeweled*



Bejeweled,

I can't say how sorry I am for your loss. :crying I'll really miss you on this forum, and pray that you join another very soon.

:grouphug

love,
celeste

[mommabear]

Faith, I am so sorry. You seem to have such a beautiful spirit, and I pray that you grieve as you need to and are blessed with a healthy pregnancy as soon as you are ready. Peace.

[AdinaL]

:hug I am so sorry. :hug

[celestialdreamer]

:hug I am SO sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you will heal soon and be blessed with another child when you are ready.

[aweynsayl]

:hug

I'm so so sorry. Today was my first day in this area... I never noticed it before, isnt that cute of me. I was so excited everyone seems so nice!

Sending you huge hugs and best wishes.

[ZenMamaJen]

I'm so sorry, bejeweled :hug

[wencit]

I just read this thread. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, Bejeweled. :(

:hug

[BerniceH]

I read this when it was first posted yesterday... and I didn't know what to say, I did pray for you..

Honestly, I still don't know what to say, just sitting here crying my eyes out for you.


Best of luck, dear.

I don't quite know an emoticon that will fit =\

[squeakermansmom]

:hug i'm so sorry Faith :hug

[happiestmomma]

Ohhhhhhhhhh, Faith, my prayers and hugs go out to you and your family. Hang in there, and take comfort in the love of your family and you will get through this.
Know that my thoughts are with you, as there really are no words that will truly ease your pain.

[kyle98sean02]

Faith, I am so sorry :grouphug I will add your family to our prayers. If you need to talk or cry, feel free to pm me. :hug

[norasmom]

Faith,

I too am sorry for your loss, I'll keep you in my thoughts as you & your family move through this time of healing. :grouphug

[duckat]

I'm so sorry for your loss. :hug

[FarmerCathy]

I just found out!

:hug Faith :hug

I'm so sorry.

[Mommy To Baby Roni]

Faith, I'm so sorry! I know God will bring you another baby in due time. :grouphug

[*bejeweled*]

You all are the very best. You just don't know how much you have sustained me the past days. Thank you for all of your well wishes.

Hopefully we'll all meet again soon in one of the newborn baby boards. :rocks

[FreeSpiritMama]

:hug I am so very sorry for your loss :crying, your & your famiy are in my thoughts and prayers :candle