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Tummy
08-24-2005, 12:29 AM
My presious one left us tonight. Just as I thought... had it in my head that he would come on the 23rd. I just assumed at that time it would be the 23rd of Feb, I was due the 4th of March. Nope, 23rd of August.

I began to have bad pressure around 6:15p this evening. I was cooking dinner and needed to sit down it was so bad. When I did sit I had a huge gush of blood. From that point on the cramps were so intense. I actually timed them for a hour, every 2-3 minutes. Sure enough a feeling I was all to familiar with, just 9 short months ago I felt these exact pains during the labor of my beautiful daughter.
I went outside on the back porch to use the laptop and type out what was happening. I wanted to remember this all, not to have fuzzy moments and wonder. Just before 8 pm I felt this weird pop inside of my uterus, and then a bit woozy. I went into the bath room and for some reason, I honestly do not know why, grabed a bit of toilet tissue and put it under my bottom. I felt the slightest urge to push, and did so. I began to pee and then all of a sudden a blood clot.
My DH was on the phone with his sister in the bedroom. Before even pulling the tissue from between my legs I called for him. He came in a hurry and stood before me. I pulled the tissue up and saw my baby's eyes. There was a large blood clot and the baby's head, two eyes and a third black dot, his nose or mouth.

I thought I was prepared for this moment. I thought with knowing the past 6 days the baby was dead that I would be okay at this moment...
WRONG I WAS!

I began to sob. My DH dropped to his knees and held me while I sat on the toilet with part of our baby in my hands. My body continued to expell more blood clots and gushes of blood.
I have NEVER seen my DH cry until tonight!

I cleaned myself up, put on a new pair of panties and pad. The bleeding was sooo horrific! I had hemorrhaged with my last birth and it was replaying itself all over again.
After a hour and soaking 6 pads I had left over from "A's" birth, two pairs of panties I decieded it was a good idea to go to the ER. We arrived, me soaked from front to back in blood. I got undressed, onto the table and felt another HUGE blood clot leave my body. The nurse took it and put it in a cup. The next hour I had no blood clots, hardly any bleeding. Everything seemed to have become regular again.
I spoke with the nurse and decided to leave the hosp with out any futher testing.
I will follow up with my doctor tomorrow.


Thank you all for letting me share this story with you.




PortraitPixie
08-24-2005, 12:35 AM
:hug Oh, you poor, sweet mamma. What an absolutely horrific thing to live through. My thoughts and prayers are with you now, for healing and peace.

:candle

NaomiMunch
08-24-2005, 12:41 AM
:( We are very sorry you had to go through what you went through... We may not have gone through the same situation, but have both suffered a loss of a beautiful child.

I am glad I was "there" for you, I wish I could have done more. Again, if you guys need anything, please call, email, message, do something. We LOVE YOU GUYS!

I am blessed and honored to have seen the alter DH and you made. It is beautiful. :thumb ..

Well I told you I don't like doing these, so I am going to end this, as I have nothing else to say right now, it's late, I can't think...

Love you!

Catherine Bennet
08-24-2005, 03:12 AM
:( I am so sorry... I can't imagine how horrible that was. :(

~*max*~
08-24-2005, 05:02 AM
Tummy, I am so sorry for our loss. My thoughts are with you and your family. :hug

queencarr
08-24-2005, 07:25 AM
I am so sorry for you. We ae anniversary dates right now, so my own memories are especially fresh. Please be good to yourself.

taradt
08-24-2005, 10:23 AM
:hug

Take care of yourself during this hard time

tara

HollysMom
08-24-2005, 10:32 AM
I am so sorry for your loss. :hug

Debstmomy
08-24-2005, 10:42 AM
I am so sorry. :hugs

BumbleBena
08-24-2005, 11:49 AM
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care of yourself. :hug

coleslaw
08-24-2005, 03:32 PM
I am so very sorry for your loss. I am so impressed by your strength and your dh's to look at your baby. I personally couldn't do it with my m/c and I really regret it. Please take care of yourself, continue to drink lots of fluids and rest your body and your mind as often as possible. :Hug

starbaby69
08-24-2005, 11:40 PM
:crying