Angel
09-10-2005, 01:47 AM
(I apologize in advance for what may be TMI...)
If I'm honest with myself, I'll admit I really knew from the beginning that something was wrong. This pregnancy just never felt "right" - no sore breasts, no real symptoms other than mild nausea and intense fatigue. Since this was my fourth pregnancy, although I know each time is different, this one just didn't seem right. I searched for message board threads to back up the fact that a lack of symptoms didn't necessarily mean anything was wrong (I know it doesn't), but really...I knew. Every time I went to the bathroom...every single time...I looked for blood, breathing a sigh of relief when I didn't find any. Then, Tuesday night there was a spot. A tiny little pinpoint of blood, followed by a faintly blood-tinged bit of mucus. A few times after that, I saw a minute amount of spotting, but nothing more...until Wednesday afternoon. Suddenly, there was real blood. Not just spotting. A scary amount of bright red blood, with a streaky clot. I've bled with my other pregnancies - each time, in fact - and everything turned out ok, so I kept trying to convince myself everything was fine. Still, I wanted to go to the hospital so find out for sure. I hadn't planned on having an u/s this pregnancy, but now I had to know if my "Tiny One" was ok. Before I knew it, I was at the hospital, gowned, IV'd, and scared as hell. After an exam, the dr. said there was so much blood that he was worried I might have some kind of clotting disorder! Still, my cervix was closed, so I tried to hold onto any thread of hope I could find. Unfortunately, two different u/s's confirmed that my baby was gone. They couldn't find any "products of conception" (what an ugly term), so they sent me home with strict bedrest orders, to finish miscarrying on my own. For the first day, I didn't have more than mild cramps and a small amount of intermittent bleeding. Today, day two, has been the worst. Major cramps (contractions?), and intermittent bouts of moderate-to-heavy bleeding. How long can I expect the cramps/bleeding to continue? Any BTDTs would be greatly appreciated.
Emotionally, I'm a wreck. The smallest things set me off into yet another round of tears. My husband is being wonderful, but I feel for him too. He misses the baby as much as I do. This would have been his first baby, and our first together...
If I'm honest with myself, I'll admit I really knew from the beginning that something was wrong. This pregnancy just never felt "right" - no sore breasts, no real symptoms other than mild nausea and intense fatigue. Since this was my fourth pregnancy, although I know each time is different, this one just didn't seem right. I searched for message board threads to back up the fact that a lack of symptoms didn't necessarily mean anything was wrong (I know it doesn't), but really...I knew. Every time I went to the bathroom...every single time...I looked for blood, breathing a sigh of relief when I didn't find any. Then, Tuesday night there was a spot. A tiny little pinpoint of blood, followed by a faintly blood-tinged bit of mucus. A few times after that, I saw a minute amount of spotting, but nothing more...until Wednesday afternoon. Suddenly, there was real blood. Not just spotting. A scary amount of bright red blood, with a streaky clot. I've bled with my other pregnancies - each time, in fact - and everything turned out ok, so I kept trying to convince myself everything was fine. Still, I wanted to go to the hospital so find out for sure. I hadn't planned on having an u/s this pregnancy, but now I had to know if my "Tiny One" was ok. Before I knew it, I was at the hospital, gowned, IV'd, and scared as hell. After an exam, the dr. said there was so much blood that he was worried I might have some kind of clotting disorder! Still, my cervix was closed, so I tried to hold onto any thread of hope I could find. Unfortunately, two different u/s's confirmed that my baby was gone. They couldn't find any "products of conception" (what an ugly term), so they sent me home with strict bedrest orders, to finish miscarrying on my own. For the first day, I didn't have more than mild cramps and a small amount of intermittent bleeding. Today, day two, has been the worst. Major cramps (contractions?), and intermittent bouts of moderate-to-heavy bleeding. How long can I expect the cramps/bleeding to continue? Any BTDTs would be greatly appreciated.
Emotionally, I'm a wreck. The smallest things set me off into yet another round of tears. My husband is being wonderful, but I feel for him too. He misses the baby as much as I do. This would have been his first baby, and our first together...