too bad it was just a dream...

[judybean]

I had another amazing, empowering dream last night... this even after an absolutely terrible day. Dh is away for the weekend and for whatever reason it just hit me so hard last night that when I talked with him it took all I had not to just start bawling. Talk about Inexplicably Emotional Anonymous... sheesh. And since yesterday was the end of the month, that meant our first-of-the-month bills were coming up and dh's monthly paycheck came in. Our income won't match our outgoing bills this month and I was a wreck trying to figure out what to do. Who doesn't get paid? The plumber for clearing out our sewer line after it backed up and flooded part of our basement? The tree-cutter guy who saved the powerline running to our house after half of our tree was dangling over it, stretching it out? The hospital? Ugh. It was a bad day yesterday.

It took a long time for me to get to sleep, but finally I drifted off... and then I was almost bummed that it *was* just a dream because it was wonderful!!

It was time. The time. Time to have a baby. I could tell it was going to happen soon. Dh was busy gathering things for the hospital and I was... well, I was taking my time. And then it was simply Time To Have The Baby. I wasn't going anywhere. So I grabbed a premium prefold (which later I thought was pretty funny... like that was really going to be enough to clean up the mess :LOL ) and bore down. Soon the head was engaged and coming down and out. While all this was happening one of the things that made the greatest impression on me was not having dh freak out (I'd be worried about that if things went UC). He watched in awe as it all unfolded before his eyes. Soon the baby was out. Quite a plump little baby, I must say. And so I flipped the baby over to see what gender we had... and again (just as my other very visual dream) the baby was a girl and she was named Juliana. But still no middle name!! I remember even in my dream thinking that we needed to come up with something!

But then there is a bit of an odd part and I think there were a few issues in my last oh-so-vivid birthing dream dealing with this as well -- for some reason I 'couldn't figure out' how to get the placenta out... I say I couldn't figure it out because I can't think of a better way to describe it. I was seemingly bearing down to get it out but nothing was happening.

So I'm trying to figure out why I'm so darn worried about delivering the placenta as well! Who knows. But I am very glad to have had that dream last night. ... although it was a bummer to wake up and not have it be real.

Just thought I'd share!

(plus, these dreams are So Much Better than ones I had with Katherine... they were terribly, terribly violent with kidnapping, shotting, etc... so I'm more than happy to share wonderful birthing ones)

[Spark]

Oh, Judy! What a wonderful dream!!! :D That sounds just beautiful!!! The sense of calm, confidence and power that you felt must have been awesome! Sure, you grabbed a premium PF :LOL to catch everything, but it just goes to show you that you're able to adapt in dream world. :) Sounds like you might want to read up on placenta delivery. You know, waiting an hour for the placenta is not unheard of. Sometimes in a normal 3rd stage they just take a little while longer to detach. Nursing your baby would help or even letting HER lick at your nipple would be enough to encourage it.

:hug I'm so sorry bills and income aren't matching for you! :( That is hard stuff to deal with, especially when we naturally want to retreat within ourselves during the end of pregnancy. Sometimes I think it's fine to turn to your partner and say, "I am incapable of dealing with this right now for the health of our child and me." You're ushering a new life into the world and events really affect us more powerfully than usual. It's almost like the tragedy thread and 3rd trimester from earlier. Where many of us said that tragedies seems to be on our peripheral, but we can't just absorb into them like we would if we weren't 3rd Trimester mamas.

I had a birth dream last night, too. Although, I only dreamed it up to the point of labor beginning. My water broke and I imagined a doula with a big book that kept making suggestions. I kept thinking, "An imaginary doula is a handy things to have!" I also kept thinking I didn't really want to pay attention to the ctx because it wasn't full blown labor yet. When I woke up I was having those good old patterned BH ctx. Kept me up from there. Whew. Again, a night without much sleep. I'm tired. :zzz