IfMamaAintHappy
10-01-2005, 10:43 PM
Not so great appointment.
Either I have reversed dilated, or the midwife assistant last week was on crack. I am not 2 cm and 50%, I am a fingertip dilated.
Last pregnancy I had already been at 4 cm and 100% and +1 station for a week by my 39 week appointment. I had a nice short and intense labor.
I am losing hope rapidly of having a short labor. I have never been this exhausted in my life. Every day I wake up and say "Lord I dont have the endurance for labor today, please dont let baby come today". How sad is that??
My midwife said that i might be more dilated than a fingertip when baby is putting pressure on my cervix, but that when I am laying down and baby is off my cervix, it is not stretched. But that all that stretching is a good thing.
My cervix is in the forward position, which is optimal, baby is left occipital anterior, which is optimal, and I hve lost a cm in fundal height, which is generally my big cue that baby is coming that week because I have dropped. I have a tendancy to measure large for dates, like for weeks at a time, and tehn all of a sudden at the end I measure a cm behind my weeks.
What I am expecting, then, is labor probably this week, and a longer labor than last time. So I need to psych myself up mentally for that, and I need to rest when I feel tired to conserve some energy. When Im not resting, Ill be walking and exercising, in the hopes of dilating some more.
Baby is 9 pounds give or take. Lily was born at 39w3d, so that would be 4 days from now in this pregnancy, and she was 9 lbs 4 and 21 3/4 inches.
My anemia is gone, which is great, but my blood pressure is not good. The first time she took it, it was 150 over 98. Then 145 over 95, and then after 5 minutes of concentrating on relaxing, we finally got a 135 over 85 reading.
I am so done. I have never been in so much pain from doing so f-ing little around my house and stuff. If I cook dinner and go to the store for a few things in the same day, its like my body thinks I ran a marathon. I am tired of feeling weak! I ran errands and did laundry and cooked and cleaned and stuff all th way till labor started with Lily, and Im just a slug who hobbles around gritting ehr teeth and holding onto furniture and doorjambs because of the intense pain and lack of control she has over wobbling disjointed hips. Im tired of being tired. Im terrified of laboring in this kind of exhaustion.
Please pray for endurance for me.
Either I have reversed dilated, or the midwife assistant last week was on crack. I am not 2 cm and 50%, I am a fingertip dilated.
Last pregnancy I had already been at 4 cm and 100% and +1 station for a week by my 39 week appointment. I had a nice short and intense labor.
I am losing hope rapidly of having a short labor. I have never been this exhausted in my life. Every day I wake up and say "Lord I dont have the endurance for labor today, please dont let baby come today". How sad is that??
My midwife said that i might be more dilated than a fingertip when baby is putting pressure on my cervix, but that when I am laying down and baby is off my cervix, it is not stretched. But that all that stretching is a good thing.
My cervix is in the forward position, which is optimal, baby is left occipital anterior, which is optimal, and I hve lost a cm in fundal height, which is generally my big cue that baby is coming that week because I have dropped. I have a tendancy to measure large for dates, like for weeks at a time, and tehn all of a sudden at the end I measure a cm behind my weeks.
What I am expecting, then, is labor probably this week, and a longer labor than last time. So I need to psych myself up mentally for that, and I need to rest when I feel tired to conserve some energy. When Im not resting, Ill be walking and exercising, in the hopes of dilating some more.
Baby is 9 pounds give or take. Lily was born at 39w3d, so that would be 4 days from now in this pregnancy, and she was 9 lbs 4 and 21 3/4 inches.
My anemia is gone, which is great, but my blood pressure is not good. The first time she took it, it was 150 over 98. Then 145 over 95, and then after 5 minutes of concentrating on relaxing, we finally got a 135 over 85 reading.
I am so done. I have never been in so much pain from doing so f-ing little around my house and stuff. If I cook dinner and go to the store for a few things in the same day, its like my body thinks I ran a marathon. I am tired of feeling weak! I ran errands and did laundry and cooked and cleaned and stuff all th way till labor started with Lily, and Im just a slug who hobbles around gritting ehr teeth and holding onto furniture and doorjambs because of the intense pain and lack of control she has over wobbling disjointed hips. Im tired of being tired. Im terrified of laboring in this kind of exhaustion.
Please pray for endurance for me.