Going on Meds today (and breastfeeding !?)

[Mama2Mila]

I saw my OB doc yesterday and she confirmed that my symptoms are "textbook" PPD and that I shouldn't blame myself etc. She was really understanding and said it was a good idea I saw the Psychiatrist today for some Meds. She said with "enough rest, good support, meds, and therapy" I should see improvments within a couple of weeks (hopefully). So last night she insisted I took some sleep aid to get some REM-sleep (for the first time in 7 weeks) and this morning felt sooooo good.
What I'm struggling with at this point is deciding about continuing breastfeeding. We've had many problems with it so far (see my posts in the breastfeeding forum) and I feel it's adding majorly to my depression. In fact every time I nurse Luca I get this sinking feeling in my stomach and my anxiety level rises in anticipation of his fussiness afterwards (I have oversupply, oald and he has a horrible latch that couldn't be corrected so far...so he fusses after EVERY feeding except nighttime...but that's when I should sleep some too :( ) So I'm thinking of pumping and bottlefeeding and maybe putting him to the breast once/twice day max. so that as the depression lifts I might be able to go back !?? Has anyone experienced this? I just feel at this point that all the problems with breastfeeding this time have contributed to my depression and I NEED to get better for Mila and Luca's sake and be the mommy they deserve (happy, smiling, with energy). How to make the decision to stop/reduce breastfeeding in light of PPD?

Any input is very much appreciated

Alex

[mrs.felt]

i would suggest starting the meds and giving them a chance to work before you make any decisions about the breastfeeding. sometimes PPD can make everything seem like a worthless effort but maybe if you can clear your mind and get the meds working for you, you might be able to find a solution to the breastfeeding problems. (i hope i understood your post correctly, i'm still sleepy this morning :lol )

i pump and bottlefeed and it's definitely NOT a walk in the park. in fact, it's awful. not only that, but my son has rejected the breast altogether now so i can't feed directly from the breast and i'm basically stuck with the pump & my supply is suffering.

if you DO end up not breastfeeding, don't allow yourself to feel guilty about it. you said it best yourself -- you NEED to be well for your kids' sake! take care, mama. :Hug