Jster
11-10-2005, 09:28 PM
Ugghh. I'm so mad at my mom right now I could SCREAM. Here goes...AAHHGGRR!!! Why do you do this to me!! Why don't you respect me!!! Why can't you help me in the ways I ask/need/want you to!!! Why do you throw problems my way all the time!!! ARGGHH!!!
My mom decided to take the girls camping. I was excited for them, but worried, because frankly she's irresponsible sometimes. But she watches them for me full days on Wed. and Thurs., so she decided it would be fun to drive down to the everglades with them to go to an indian reservation. I was supportive, packed them tons of snacks, got everything ready. Getting off was a bit rocky, because she was late coming over, made me late for my class, and was pretty rude and disrespectful as soon as she got here.
I don't know why my mother doesn't respect me. She treats me more "like a child" than I would ever, ever treat my own girls. She does not respect my boundaries, is constantly doubting the truthfulness of what I say (even when I repeat news stories!), and generally disrespects every boundary I try to assert. So she was going to borrow my car (because hers isn't reliable enough, mine has air and the car seats). She comes over, parks her car, which is messy inside, and then proceeds to take EVERYTHING OUT OF MY CAR AND DUMP IT ALL ON THE FLOOR OF MY HOUSE!!! She even was foolish enough to take out my registration and insurance, all the cds that the girls listen to in the car, toys that they play with, snacks, kleenex...basically all sorts of things that are there FOR A REASON, to make driving with two kids a little easier. I got so mad I lost my temper (I'm really trying to work on it, but I just felt so violated and helpless when she was making a mess of my house and I was late to class). But they left okay.
She was supposed to be home tonight between 4-5 and I gave her my cell phone so we could be in touch. She didn't call last night, didn't call today, and had it turned off. I know she's horribly late, so I tried not to worry (but my house is now spotless :thumb). 5, 6. I eat dinner. 7, 8, at 8:10 they finally drive up. I am so glad to see them, and the first thing that I notice is dd1's leg is SWOLLEN TO DOUBLE it's size because of red ant bites, honestly there must be 40-50 of them. I couldn't believe my eyes, or that this happened yesterday and she didn't get any treatment, just put on lavender essential oil (which I don't think helped a bit). And my poor baby! One red ant bite hurts like fire, I can't imagine how she felt! And she was having trouble walking (but I'm sure my mom still went for walks, etc, not taking the poor dear girl into account).
So I keep my cool but tell my mother that she will have to run to the store and get some cream...I call the local Walgreens and they have what I wanted, an OTC antihistimine cream to stop the allergic reaction. I told my mother SPECIFICALLY what I needed. dd2, who hasn't nursed in almost two days, is frantic and exhausted and won't let me put her down, or else I would have gone.
My mom came back and what did she get? Calamine lotion. Now, that might help sooth, but the problem is soooooo much bigger than a little irritation, I started sobbing over my poor dear daughters leg as I held my now sleeping baby (my mom moved everything to her car before she would go get the lotion, so it took a long time). It was 9:30, too late to call a friend to help, and my poor daughter's leg is still swollen and sore. I'm crying as I type this, because I'm so mad that my mom is so uncaring to not have helped her out. Yeah, my mom is into alternative medicine, but that all falls to pieces when you have a traumatic occurance like 40-50 poisonous bites. I'm so sad, so mad, sooooo mmmmaaaaaadddddddddddd!
Well, I've vented, but I don't feel any better yet. I just pray that my dd1's leg will be a little better in the morning, or else I'm not going to want to drop her off at her dcp and go to my classes, even though I need to (as there's only one more week of class). If anyone prays, pray for us, kay? Just happy thoughts our way, and peace for me if you can spare some.
My mom decided to take the girls camping. I was excited for them, but worried, because frankly she's irresponsible sometimes. But she watches them for me full days on Wed. and Thurs., so she decided it would be fun to drive down to the everglades with them to go to an indian reservation. I was supportive, packed them tons of snacks, got everything ready. Getting off was a bit rocky, because she was late coming over, made me late for my class, and was pretty rude and disrespectful as soon as she got here.
I don't know why my mother doesn't respect me. She treats me more "like a child" than I would ever, ever treat my own girls. She does not respect my boundaries, is constantly doubting the truthfulness of what I say (even when I repeat news stories!), and generally disrespects every boundary I try to assert. So she was going to borrow my car (because hers isn't reliable enough, mine has air and the car seats). She comes over, parks her car, which is messy inside, and then proceeds to take EVERYTHING OUT OF MY CAR AND DUMP IT ALL ON THE FLOOR OF MY HOUSE!!! She even was foolish enough to take out my registration and insurance, all the cds that the girls listen to in the car, toys that they play with, snacks, kleenex...basically all sorts of things that are there FOR A REASON, to make driving with two kids a little easier. I got so mad I lost my temper (I'm really trying to work on it, but I just felt so violated and helpless when she was making a mess of my house and I was late to class). But they left okay.
She was supposed to be home tonight between 4-5 and I gave her my cell phone so we could be in touch. She didn't call last night, didn't call today, and had it turned off. I know she's horribly late, so I tried not to worry (but my house is now spotless :thumb). 5, 6. I eat dinner. 7, 8, at 8:10 they finally drive up. I am so glad to see them, and the first thing that I notice is dd1's leg is SWOLLEN TO DOUBLE it's size because of red ant bites, honestly there must be 40-50 of them. I couldn't believe my eyes, or that this happened yesterday and she didn't get any treatment, just put on lavender essential oil (which I don't think helped a bit). And my poor baby! One red ant bite hurts like fire, I can't imagine how she felt! And she was having trouble walking (but I'm sure my mom still went for walks, etc, not taking the poor dear girl into account).
So I keep my cool but tell my mother that she will have to run to the store and get some cream...I call the local Walgreens and they have what I wanted, an OTC antihistimine cream to stop the allergic reaction. I told my mother SPECIFICALLY what I needed. dd2, who hasn't nursed in almost two days, is frantic and exhausted and won't let me put her down, or else I would have gone.
My mom came back and what did she get? Calamine lotion. Now, that might help sooth, but the problem is soooooo much bigger than a little irritation, I started sobbing over my poor dear daughters leg as I held my now sleeping baby (my mom moved everything to her car before she would go get the lotion, so it took a long time). It was 9:30, too late to call a friend to help, and my poor daughter's leg is still swollen and sore. I'm crying as I type this, because I'm so mad that my mom is so uncaring to not have helped her out. Yeah, my mom is into alternative medicine, but that all falls to pieces when you have a traumatic occurance like 40-50 poisonous bites. I'm so sad, so mad, sooooo mmmmaaaaaadddddddddddd!
Well, I've vented, but I don't feel any better yet. I just pray that my dd1's leg will be a little better in the morning, or else I'm not going to want to drop her off at her dcp and go to my classes, even though I need to (as there's only one more week of class). If anyone prays, pray for us, kay? Just happy thoughts our way, and peace for me if you can spare some.