MamaTaraX
12-05-2005, 09:52 PM
Here I sit, 34 weeks pregnant for the 3rd time. Nice big happy baby in there. My first homebirth probably about 4.5 weeks away. Wow. My husband was a little apprehensive about having a homebirth. He thinks that all babies should be born at home....except mine. He worries about me and I think that is sweet. The only reason we're having a midwife is for his peace of mind; I'd rather do a freebirth, surrounded by friends and family.
The subject line I chose for a reason. I want ahomebirth, I beleive in this homebirth...but I really *need* it to happen. I need for my husband to see this birth, at home, and I need it go to "well". He has confidence in my ability to birth, but he still worries. I need this to be the beautiful thing I plan it to be for him. I talk to the baby a lot and tell her what I need frrom her in terms of the birth. I'd like it to go smoothly. I don't believe I will be in labor very long, but I want to be in labor long enough to call the midwife. Not because I want orneed her there, but because I think that a quickie unplanned UC will really devestate him. He thinks freebirthing is great, he just doesn't want to see me do it. Actually, in the beginning of the pregnancy, he was okay with it as long as I surrounded myself with people while it happened, preferaly people who had birthed before. Then he started getting uneasy about it. So as tempting as it is for me to not call the midwife, I will (or will have him do it). Even if she dosn't arrive, at least she will have been called. I think that forhim, just knowing she's coming will be enough to reassure him.
I don't think there is anything I can truly do to make this birth happen as beautifully as I'd like, other than talking to the baby a lot about my wishes. I really just want my husband to experience and even more empowered birth than lasttime. He caught our 2nd son and now thinks that all daddies or partners should catch their children. he will catch this baby, though he doesn't want to be part of the labor itself (which is another post for another day). I'm so looking forward to this birth -- looking forward to the feel of labor,birthing my baby into the home where she (or he) will nurse,play,and grow, looking forward to sharing my awesome birth witht he people who will be here as well as the ones I tell about it later. Thanksfor letting me share :)
Namaste, Tara
The subject line I chose for a reason. I want ahomebirth, I beleive in this homebirth...but I really *need* it to happen. I need for my husband to see this birth, at home, and I need it go to "well". He has confidence in my ability to birth, but he still worries. I need this to be the beautiful thing I plan it to be for him. I talk to the baby a lot and tell her what I need frrom her in terms of the birth. I'd like it to go smoothly. I don't believe I will be in labor very long, but I want to be in labor long enough to call the midwife. Not because I want orneed her there, but because I think that a quickie unplanned UC will really devestate him. He thinks freebirthing is great, he just doesn't want to see me do it. Actually, in the beginning of the pregnancy, he was okay with it as long as I surrounded myself with people while it happened, preferaly people who had birthed before. Then he started getting uneasy about it. So as tempting as it is for me to not call the midwife, I will (or will have him do it). Even if she dosn't arrive, at least she will have been called. I think that forhim, just knowing she's coming will be enough to reassure him.
I don't think there is anything I can truly do to make this birth happen as beautifully as I'd like, other than talking to the baby a lot about my wishes. I really just want my husband to experience and even more empowered birth than lasttime. He caught our 2nd son and now thinks that all daddies or partners should catch their children. he will catch this baby, though he doesn't want to be part of the labor itself (which is another post for another day). I'm so looking forward to this birth -- looking forward to the feel of labor,birthing my baby into the home where she (or he) will nurse,play,and grow, looking forward to sharing my awesome birth witht he people who will be here as well as the ones I tell about it later. Thanksfor letting me share :)
Namaste, Tara