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judybean
12-15-2005, 01:08 AM
Because obviously my crunchy card is of no use to me.

Nothing is happening. Okay, fine. I'm still four days out from my edd. Yes, I know it's all an estimate because the BABY will know when it's 'done'.

Except that I'm having a hospital birth.

But shouldn't you tell them how it should be? Shouldn't you stand up for letting your baby bake as long as need be?

Certainly. Yes. Of course.

But you're not going to?

Induction talk is starting up. No, I'll wait until after 41 weeks. But talk is seeming to get closer to the 27th. Or thereabouts. More talk will be had at my next visit -- at 41 weeks.

So all this talk about not wanting to be induced and you're caving?

I guess it looks that way. So much for being voted 'least likely to be induced'. And all my talk for ... gee whiz, all these months ... about how much I didn't want to be induced. And guess what... nothing else seems to be moving so it will probably happen.

But the 27th is still 13 days away, right?

Well, depending on when you're reading this, yeah, it is. So labor, BRING IT ON, I say. But nothing seems to be happening. At all. No 'signs', no symptoms. No abnormal mucus. No contractions (wait, maybe *one* ... and yeah, like that ONE did a whole heck of a lot). No nothing. Just a hiccuping baby. That doesn't seem to want to come out.

You sure seem glum about it all.

Well, yeah. I am. This isn't the ideal situation. Yes, yes, a lot can happen in these next few days, and I really am hoping that something does happen. Unfortunately, if history is any indication of what is to come... well, I feel great. Sure, my pelvis aches a bit (especially if I sleep wrong), I can't sleep much, I cry a lot because my hormones seem totally off-kilter right now, my balance isn't exactly what it used to be, I can't kick stuff, and I'm wearing different clothes than 'normal'... but really, life is simply moving on and I feel like nothing is happening. If I could 'will' it to happen, it would have happened by now.

Why the impatience? There are still quite a few days until a possible induction. Why are you so resigned to the 'fact' that it's going to happen that way?

I'm not sure. It's one of those days? And I feel likeI have to get it out here. Because I can't post more until I let it out. I feel like it's some big secret I've been keeping (for like, two whole days). This isn't the place to come on and say, "hey, I think I"ll be induced". Especially for a hospital birth on top of everything. No 'born at home' for this babe. No, "all natural and proud" with this babe. No legit medical reason for doing so, even. But I don't think I want to resist. And I guess I thought it should be all out there. Because otherwise I feel like I'm not being honest with you all. So... now you know. I'm not as crunchy as I want to be.

...

Do you interview yourself often?

Hm... don't think I've ever done it before, actually.

Isn't it kind of creepy?

Probably.

Um... maybe you should head for bed?

Not going to happen anytime soon for two reasons: 1) pizza and 2) hormones.... as in, mine are just messing with my emotions and I'm completely and totally needy right now and not getting anything for it... so, to avoid getting more ticked off I'll just stay down here for a while.

Is this a post you'll regret in the morning?

Probably. But that's okay. Hopefully somebody will get a chuckle out of my ramblings.

Well, thank you for your time.

Thank *you* as well ;)




AngelBee
12-15-2005, 01:16 AM
:hug I love you judybean :love

Next time.....I will do the interview for you :wink :laugh:

judybean
12-15-2005, 01:21 AM
heh... thanks... I'm just feeling less-than-stellar lately ... and with this? well, just downright soggy!!

(and you know, for having worked at a newspaper office for FIVE YEARS and having to interview people a lot... I never *was* very good at it ;) )

sapphire_chan
12-15-2005, 01:22 AM
:2whistle: here baby! :wave come on out here, there's hugs and loves and breastmilk! (Babies who aren't born yet, can read, right?)

Judybean, :hug :fingersx:

AngelBee
12-15-2005, 01:37 AM
:2whistle: here baby! :wave come on out here, there's hugs and loves and breastmilk! (Babies who aren't born yet, can read, right?)

Judybean, :hug :fingersx:
:laugh:

AngelBee
12-15-2005, 01:38 AM
Sending birthing vibes your way :1praying:

DesireeH
12-15-2005, 02:12 AM
:hug

I love your interview! Birth vibes coming your way! They are probably no good coming from me but I will send you all of mine anyways!!!

atozmama
12-15-2005, 04:14 AM
:hug Judy

It is a sad comentary on the medical culture we live in that puts so much pressure on a woman. I finally gave up on sleeping came downstairs (in part because the neigbors tv was blaring on the other side of my bedroom wall) because I was feeling so discouraged about induction looming over my head too and nothing happened yesterday as far as PLL goes.

atozmama
12-15-2005, 04:24 AM
:O It was so slow I thought I hadn't pushed submit button.

stillill
12-15-2005, 07:15 AM
Well, I feel where you are. I am having a hospital birth also. I was probably voted, "most likely for induction". I'm not gonna do it until the baby or I are unhealthy. The 19th is my 42nd week and my doc wants to schedule something, just in case. I'm not gonna do it until the last minute. If she can't deal with it I will give birth in my bathtub. If this baby thinks she is stubborn she should wait to see her momma. They have this secret pool at work betting on if I cave and get an epidural, nice huh. This is my first birth, I have never done this before. I cry everyday, I have feelings of letting everyone down and disappointment. They are all temporary once the baby comes. I have to tell myself and listen to my doula... she will come. I am a healthy, strong woman and this baby will come.

allnaturalmama
12-15-2005, 07:29 AM
Oh, Judy, :hug for the first part of your interview, and :lol for the second.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. We all love you, induction or not.

Baby's going to be born before then, I just know it!!!

aisraeltax
12-15-2005, 08:42 AM
Judy,
very clever girl! nice way to express yourself!
you are so not alone here and i would hope that any of us mamas can come here and say what is truly on our minds...not just what is "crunchy".
i said some similar things to dh last night as i was having even more contractions (they have been constant for, lets see, this is the 3d day in a row).
this is NOT easy...what is easy (in the short term) is to cave to pressure.
if i had listened to my OB, i would be holding my baby today. whats the date? the 15th? i woudl have a babe that is 2 weeks old today. that would be easier for ME b/c i wouldnt have to go through this...and its so hard to wait and wait and wait.
hang in there...you do have some time left and a lot can happen.
im sending good labor vibes to you....and hope that something will start up again.
:dust :dust :dust :dust :dust :dust

rach

marisa
12-15-2005, 09:11 AM
:hug
I'm sorry you are feeling so much pressure. I can't say for sure that if I was in your situation what I would do either. You will have your baby before then, stay strong!

amis2girls
12-15-2005, 09:54 AM
I identify with everything you wrote, and then I got to the "do you interview yourself often" and had tears in my eyes. :lol

My dr. is offering induction and it was so hard to turn down. She's going out of town next week. Her standin delivered my last and I've never met the one who's covering for her this time.

judybean
12-15-2005, 08:55 PM
Thank you, everybody. Today is not as bad of a day. Yesterday... dang... it was a bummer for sure.

I :love you all!!!!!!

rapscallions
12-15-2005, 10:34 PM
in *my* experience, getting bummed out/discouraged/frustrated/teary is a good sign that baby is a'comin fairly soon! (in fact, i am glad to be feeling grumpy these last two days b/c before that i felt great and was just positive the baby was weeks away.) i was in a massive funk with baby #2 and wasn't even near overdue yet!!!

hang in there judy, your interview was a great outlet. print out these posts and you will just love having them to share with your babe some day!

AngelBee
12-15-2005, 10:36 PM
Thank you, everybody. Today is not as bad of a day. Yesterday... dang... it was a bummer for sure.

I :love you all!!!!!!
:hug Glad you feel better. :love

its_our_family
12-15-2005, 10:40 PM
Wow, that was a great interview!

I think that your post was a good "sign". You are supposed to feel like that towards the end :D

Happy birthing!!

atozmama
12-16-2005, 03:39 AM
I am glad you are feeling better. :)

I just happened to think that crunchy isn't necessarily what one does as much as what one thinks and feels about the options available to them. If your "crunchy card" was totally no good, this wouldn't be bothering you so much and you would have scheduled the induction already.

Thursday Girl
12-16-2005, 07:01 AM
I loved the interview (and i often times interview myself in my head :bag:)

oh the bad days huh? Aren't hormones great? i'm glad things are going better now. I know on the dec board a lot of moms have been having all sorts of PLL stuff happening and it can be a little frustrating and decieving when NOTHING is going on with you. but remember there is another dec mom (ME) who has nothing happening, nothing! and i had nothing happening with dd either. i think maybe this time i have had a couple BH but i am not even sure.so there are people/women who's bodies don't do all that preparation stuff before labor starts and you could be one of them, i apparently am. (but some sign would be nice I know.)
well dd wants me to get off the computer

courtney

MistyB
12-16-2005, 08:03 AM
Crunchy Schmuncy...

Funny post!

I hope your baby comes soon! ; )

MamaTaraX
12-16-2005, 09:49 AM
I got a cuckle out of it :) I interview myself sometimes. Only the cool kids do it ;) IOhope you have an awesome birth, no matter when and how it happens!

Namaste, Tara