Need to vent

[Grantsmommy]

I just need to get out some of my feelings...I'm so frustrated that this is happening to me again! I'm a healthy person, I know what to do. I eat right, exercise and get enough rest. I get adjusted, don't eat chemicals, and don't take ANY medications. And yet, here I am going thru another m/c! It really bothers me that there are people out there who abuse their bodies, smoke, drink soda/coffee and alcohol, do legal and/or illegal drugs, and never exercise yet have healthy babies! What's up with that? I know this line of thinking is not very empowering, but I'm feeling all this anger right now about the whole thing. It was bad enough that it happened once, but twice?
I feel a little better now.:crying
Dawn

[XM]

I hear you... it is fustrating. But at least you are getting it out instead of letting it fester and eat at you. It made me so mad to think that a lady who saw my doc and smoked as she walked up to the clinic and drank diet coke in the waiting room and was preeclamptic had a live baby and I did my best to be healthy and had no complications and I did not.

I have to admit that one of the hardest things for me regarding my loss is knowing that every day people have live babies that they did'nt deserve and don't want, and that we deserved our baby and wanted her very much and lost her anyway. I know life is not fair but losing a baby is an awfully painful way to experience that premise in action. And it's only human to get angry about it from time to time.

If how much we loved our babies would have been enough to ensure their safety, none of us would be here in this forum. And no, it is'nt fair. But I do know that because of my loss being a mother will mean so much more to me then it could possibly mean to someone who did'nt fully appreciate what miracles their children are... and I would like to think that's worth something at least.

Hugs to you... this must be so hard right now.

XM