Anyone else feelng like a paranoid freak?

[gribbit]

Ok, so I got My BFP like a week ago. I am really happy, but I feel like I can't shake the feeling that this is just too good to be true. I am always taking my temp and checking the toilet paper for spotting. I actually had a litle bit of brown spotting two days ago and I thought for sure that it was over.. My midwife reassured me that everything was probably fine, but now I feel like I have to wipe constantly to make sure there isn't anymore there... I feel kind of stupid about this but I have to tell someone:o Are any of you feeling at all like this or do I need prefessional help:lol

michelle

[*~Danielle~*]

I think we have all gone through different degrees of disbelief or shock or worry. I had 5 days of implantation bleeding that just stopped 2 days ago. So yes, every time I wipe, I'm examining the tissue, even though I know the bleeding was normal. I had the impantation bleeding with my first pregnancy for a week and so it is par for the course for me. Yes, I did take a test 2 days ago to reassure myself I was still pregnant.

I think it is totally normal to worry.

[christmasevetwins]

I can totally relate to your sense of paranoia. I'm still temping and checking the tp. Midwives say that women in their 1st trimester are obsessive about tp. :lol That, and the fact that we all think we're carrying twins.

The other day my dh noticed me feeling the size of my breasts. I guess I was making sure they were still as big as the day before. Of course, he offered to give his expert opinion on the matter.

I guess I'm nervous b/c I had a mc between by two dd's. I was 5-6 weeks then so I know I'll be scared until I'm at least past that point. I have a ton of symptoms, though, so I'm hopeful that this is a sticky baby.

[BlissP]

Yep. I did the same thing last time too. I had hoped that this time I would feel more mellow, but I still keep thinking that somehow I am mistaken (tho I took 5 pregnancy tests.... :lol) It won't be real for me until we either see the bean on the U/S or hear the heart, me thinks. I want this so badly, I would just be so disappointed if we were to lose this baby for some reason (but then who wouldn't??)

And what is that twins thing? :lol I thought I was the only one who did that! It's not even like twins run in my family (I think there is one set, my mother's cousins, and that's it!)

[jessjillbolyer]

LOL about the twin thing!! I was just thinking what if its twins lol!!

I do the same thing I always check every time I wipe. I am trying really hard not to worry but I do at times. Oh how I want the next 8 weeks to fly by!!

[gribbit]

I didnt even think about the twin thing... I guess I can add that to my list :lol


michelle

[meggles]

You are not alone by any means. I'm feeling paranoid and sort of anxious too. I'm having some sticky/creamy cm and everytime I feel something "down there" I check to make sure it's not blood. I haven't had any implantation bleeding or spotting and I'm hoping it stays that way. I had my first beta hcG on Tuesday at 14dpo and it was 211. I go in tomorrow morning for my second beta and a progesterone test. My clinic offered me Prometrium progesterone suppositories, but I'm only going to take them if I need to. No sense in interfering with what my body is already doing naturally, right? I think after I get the second beta and progesterone test results back I'll start to feel more calm. Above all, I'm trying to hold the intention that this pregnancy is a healthy one and send my little baby bean loving thoughts as much as possible.

[tempestjewel]

Nope, not a paranoid freak, unless we all are :lol

Another obsessive-compulsive temperature taker and TP examiner. 24 days of high temps in row, but somehow I just feel better when I see its still high in the morning- its like I can relax a little bit more through the day. Here is my obsessive chart:

http://www.tcoyf.com/forum/chart.asp?id=tempestjewel

As for the TP, I got myself into trouble. I was wiping SO much that one day I saw a few spots of bright red blood and FREAKED out. Well, it turned out the blood was EXTERNAL. Evidently I irritated myself from all that wiping that I drew blood. Yup, I think I definitely need professional help. :lol

I am really trying to turn my mentality from "assuming somethings wrong until I know everything is okay" to "assuming everything is just fine until I find out otherwise". But its a hard switch. My last pg I had lots of early bleeding and was actually told I had miscarried and mourned for 4 days before finding out I was still pg.

This time I'm having TONS more early symptoms and I'm measuring some lower belly growth so I'm hoping that means this pregnancy won't be as rocky! I've felt like puking all day and complained to my husband that I felt miserable, to which he said "well, you'd feel more miserable if you didn't feel sick at all". Which is true. Wow, I do have issues :lol

[Thalia]

:hide: I'm definitely a member of the TP checking club!

It's getting better though. I still feel a little crampy but when we first found I out it felt soooo much like I was about to get my period, so I felt like I needed to go put a tampon in--just like I would if I were really about to get my period. I'm starting to trust it more.

[Octobermama]

Count me in! I hadn't thought of myself as a TP checker but that is EXACTLY what I am!! So many things to worry about, the list is endless!I have a short cycle plus I tested early so I technically am not even 4 weeks yet. It just seems so early to be admitting out loud I am pregnant!

[mommy2boys]

I'm the same way. I always check the tp, having had miscarriages before I don't know if I'm lucky enough for this baby to stick. I haven't told anyone yet because I can't bear untelling anyone and I'm terrified to be excited yet. I was feeling crampy today and started to think it was overwith.

[5thAttempt]

I popped from the december club, but you can count me in. Here are my sins:1) I check the toilet paper every time I go to the bathroom and even if I not want to go - I just wipe myself periodically. 2) I check my breasts at least few time a day and panic if they are not as sore as they were last time. Actually amount of soreness is fluctuating a lot 3) Every time I have a cramp - I run to the bathroom 4) I do not have a lot of morning sickness but sometimes I do feel it. If I do not feel it for a while - I try to eat food that made me nauseous last time to make sure I still feel sick 5) I've had my blood drown 3 times and I had 2 u/c already - I am 6.5 weeks. I am going to have another one next week. 6) I also called my doctor once in the evening just to make sure about few things - thanks god she gave me her private line. 7) I stopped tennis, pilaties and everything else but walking. 8) Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and go to the bathroom just to make sure.

It is hard to imagine the amount of paranoia I feel with this pregnancy. Thanks god MDC does not judge.

[bemommy]

Well, I don't feel paranoid, yet. Cautious, nervous. . those are the words I'd use. part of it for me is having had an early m/c in October (that lasted forever), another is that I'm super early. I got my BFP at 8-9DPO and I'm not even at 14 DPO yet. I had implantation spotting at about 5DPO and I had a very little bit of spotting again this am.

I stopped temping because I didn't want to freak out, especially considering we've just started sleeping with the windows open so I'm pretty cold come morning. Fanatical TP checker though :) That's what a over a year of TTC will do to you though :)

It would be nice if we were all able to take a nice big relaxing breath, unfortunately paranoia and pregnancy go hand in hand.

[didkisa]

This is so funny...I thought I was the only one, too. I had miscarried in early March and with that pregnancy (I was only 6 weeks along) I had extreme fatigue and my boobs hurt from the moment I found out (and it stopped just as abruptly when I miscarried). I have been checking my boobs everyday now and have been gauging my fatigue--am I tired enough? My temp dipped this weekend and that concerns me. Last time--and this time, actually--I've been looking and hoping for any sign of nausea. What other time in your life do you actually want to feel sick to your stomach? :)

[Ahappymel]

Me too...
Still temping, still running to the toilet everytime I feel a slight wetness/gush of fluid, still touching my boobs to make sure they're sore :lol
My co-workers and family probably think I've gone insane (very few know the news yet).