Grrrrrrr...

[Jish]

I had my first panic attack last night since I started the antidepressant last September. I woke up in the night sweating, nauseaus with my heart racing. I thought to myself, it's just a panic attack, it will go away and I was able to go back to sleep. Then I woke up this morning thinking, "what if I did have a heart attack and I'm ignoring it thinking it was a panic attack." There's that thinking from the "sick" part of my brain. By lunchtime I was okay, but it's just so frustrating. For the last three months I have felt GREAT and have even been thinking about going off my meds to get pregnant this summer. Then this happens and I wonder, "what is God trying to tell me." I made it through without an Ativan for the anxiety and I'm fine now, but I hate not knowing what causes those darned attacks.

I know this isn't PPD related really, but I know several of you have anxiety and panic issues, so I figured you would understand. Thanks for letting me vent.:)

[mama2girls]

I know that you told me all about it at lunch, but here's a big :hug to you! I bet they are scary.

[chellemarie]

Beth...I can't help but wonder...do you have a traumatic event in your past that you haven't dealt with or think you have dealt with but might still be bugging you?

You don't have to answer, or you could pm me. I'd be glad to talk it out with you.

[Jish]

Nope, nothing traumatic that I know of. My mom and likely my grandmother suffer from depression. My mom has been on antidepressants for years. My anxiety focuses on my health. I know where that comes from -- My mom had breast cancer when she was 30. I'm 33, and since I hit that big 30 I have worried more about my health. Normal worry I can handle, it is the chemical imbalance that drives the overwhelming anxiety that is out of control. It is more than the anxiety people feel, I know somewhere in my head that I'm being stupid, but I just can't stop. It's a very bizarre thing.

I had my first normal period (meaning it lasted more than two days and was normally heavy) this week. I had been having PVC's (heart palpitations) through when I ovulated and around when my period started. I think that the extra hormones combined with the fact that I was sick and a bit run down were likely the cause. I was very proud of myself, because I got through it so well and with out Ativan.:thumb

[Foobar]

Be proud of yourself for doing so well no matter what. We all have small setbacks and it's a horrible feeling to have a panic attack.

An extra :hug out to you

[JesseMomme]

Another :hug
If it is one thing that seems to sneak up on me now and then it's anxiety, makes me so fustrated! I sympathize here too.