Just found out pg... not feeling very excited

[ewp11100]

I know it sounds horrible! I feel bad for having such a reaction to this pg. My son I was ELATED! We had been trying for 18months.
But now I'm in a totally different situation. We have 20,000 worth of c.c. debt from me being home for 18 months with my son. I went back to work in January, and back to school this summer. I don't know what to do with my self. My degree is important to me, I have 4 more classes till I finish my degree, but can't complete it before the baby comes. I don't think it's going to be a high priority with a 2yo and a baby. I was just starting to activly wean my son, he's down to just night time, he still in bed with us. Now that I'm pg I don't want to be nursing it's really hurting, but I feel I'm pushing my son away faster then I want to.
There are also the selfish feelings of... I just got back to pre-pg weight, I'm just now starting to go out with my husband and leave my son with a friend, I'm just now starting to get use to working and having a carreer again. I'm sorry if this is a b*tchfest. I don't have anyone to talk to IRL. Although I'm pro-choice, it's never a dectition I could ever make.

Thanks for listening:)

[sapphire_chan]

:hug :hug :hug

[Lady Madonna]

Erin -:hug

Don't feel bad because you're conflicted about being pregnant. I don't think it's all that uncommon to feel this way, especially with a surprise pregnancy! When I found out I was pregnant this time, I was happy and not happy all at the same time. We'd planned on another child, but not quite as soon as this.

The way I finally looked at is was that there's NEVER a perfect time to have a baby. We could always be in a better financial position, or have accomplished more in our personal journeys than we've managed to so far.

One good thing about pregnancy is that we have about 9 months to get ourselves sorted out. When are you due? Will you be able to finish classes by then? And there's nothing wrong with working while you're pregnant, really. When I was pregnant with DD, I was in my last year of law school and working 40 miles away. It wasn't easy - and that one was planned! - but I got through it, finished school, did great work, and was able to be content when DD arrived.

Hang in there! Keep talking here - the people are so kind!

[5thAttempt]

Mama, If you really want to finish school - go for it. I am a working mom and I built bulk of my career with a baby. It is true that I had to go back to work when my son was just 6 weeks and I worked a lot (and I missed a lot of my son too) but I can proudly say that 9 years later I have a great career and a great son, who is very proud of his mom. It is harder with 2 babies - but they will grow up in a few years. You can do it.