PALS Here!

[aran]

I noticed the other DDCs have PALS threads to help provide support to mamas who have had pregnancy and/or birth losses in the past. Is there any interest in having one for the May mamas???

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ETA: Seems like there is enough interest for a PALS thread, so I just renamed the thread from "Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS) thread, anyone?" to "PALS Here!" so those who answered already need not re-sub.

WELCOME

[chrissy]

ME!

I had 2 healthy full term pregnancies and then 2 miscarriages. My first miscarriage was in March of this year at 8.5 weeks. My second was in July of this year at 4.5 weeks.

I am so scared.

[aran]

Sorry you have to be here, chrissy, but at least we're not alone.

I have had one m/c, in July also. I am having trouble feeling quite as exuberant about this pg, because of that. I mean - I am so happy of course - but there is a sense of caution in there too. On the other hand, I have been nauseated since before I got my BFP, so I am cautiously hoping that's a good sign.

[Debstmomy]

Ok, I am coming out! (and if my IRL friends or family see this here, I will tell you in person shortly) Actually, I have been posting as Crazyknitter for a week.
Anyway, I would love a PALS thread for our ddc. This pregnancy is coinciding with two things for me. First, had I not misscarried in March, I was due this month. 2nd it parallels my pregnancy with Alexa. I was due 5/23 or 5/30 (yk, how edd are). Now I am due 5/10, so basicly on the same time line. I take both as good signs that this pregnancy is meant to be.

[momto l&a]

I mc at 8 weeks the last day of July, it was my 4th pregnancy, second mc.

My first mc was July 11th 2001 at 12 weeks. It was really hard on me took along time to recover from it. This time I think I was more prepared.

Just as with my first mc I was preggo the very next month.

I feel good about this pregnancy. For the 2 pregnancies that have ended in mc I havent felt good about them. Had no desire to tell people I was preggo.

We have 3 children,6, 4, and 22 months.

I am almost 6 weeks

:hug to you all

[chrissy]

J, yeah I'd say the nausea is a good sign! i am hoping for lots of nausea here. i am already feeling queasy and am not even 4 weeks yet so that's good.

Cristina, wow, i think those are definitely good signs!!

mom to l&a, i also feel good about this pregnancy and did not feel that way with my miscarriages. when i found out i was pregnant with what would be my first m/c, i felt like i was making it up or like i was lying about it. this time i feel like it is real, even if i do have my moments of fear and panic.

i have been obsessively testing ever since i got my first bfp at 10dpo. the lines are getting darker every day so that is making me feel good. i had my first beta on friday and i go back tomorrow morning for my second. i am somewhat nervous but i really feel like it is going to be okay.

[chrissy]

hi guys,

i went in this morning for my second beta. they said they'll call today but it might be later this afternoon. i mostly feel good about it, but every now and then i get really nervous. i'm doing a lot of :fingersx: and :1praying:


how are you all doing?

[aran]

chrissy: G/L with the test results. I have my :fingersx: for you, too. I obsessively POAS with the pg I m/c because I felt it wasn't right, and my lines got darker, too, so I don't trust that anymore. It's good you are getting the blood test. (Of course I have extra test strips, so this hasn't stopped me from POAS every morning this time, either!)

Debstmomy: I'll just rename this thread the PALS thread, since there are (and probably will be) enough interest. That way we don't need to sub again. Welcome and I am sorry you are here (because it means you m/c) - but I am happy you are here (because it means you are pg again :thumb

mom to l&a: I know what you mean about not wanting to tell... I felt like something was awry last time, and feel more confident this time... maybe because there are more symptoms??? I have been overanalyzing every twinge though, too.

[chrissy]

i just got the call and my beta level today was 159! i am so darn happy! okay, phew, phew, phew. they want me to go in for another one wednesday morning too.

okay, bouncing off the walls here. need to go relax.

sticky + thoughts for all of us!

[EricaE]

I would love to join you for some added support.

I've had 2 live births and 5 miscarriages. This pregnancy is my 4th one this year, and I'm praying with everything I have that it sticks. The one thing that gives me hope is that I've never been this far along and lost a pregnancy.

I haven't had a beta check in a few days, but the ones I did have in the beginning looked okay.

12 dpo: 49
14 dpo: 188
18 dpo: 669
21 dpo: 1,982

The doubling time between the 2nd and 3rd beta scare me, but I'm trying to have faith. It's not easy, though. I am constantly worrying over this pregnancy.

[Willzmama]

Thanks for starting this, Aran.

My story: I have DS who is 3, then I had a m/c October of last year, and a 2nd m/c in May. I had a slew of testing done which didn't reveal much, but I've been on progesterone for 2 weeks now.

AND...I just POAS stick Saturday (CD 25) and got my first beta: 123. My 2nd beta was today: 360. I get another Wednesday, too! I have thyroid issues so they did my TSH, which looks okay.

DH and I are jaded by my 2 m/cs, afraid to believe this one might happen. I think my mom was rather reserved about it all, too, when I called her with our news. But I needed to come here and see some hope, maybe it will rub off on me. :o

[chrissy]

Erica, I think your beta's look great! I thought they were supposed to double within 72 hours. Yours definitely did that.

Willzmama, your beta's look great too!

Speaking of beta's, is there a website you guys recommend that has charts showing average numbers, etc? I have seen some but was wondering if you guys had a favorite.

[EricaE]

Chrissy, my favorite beta website is www.betabase.com. It gives sooo much information. Definently check it out if you haven't already!

Willzmama, your betas are lookin' good! :thumb

Speaking of obsessively POAS, I just peed on yet another one tonight (I'm 25 dpo). I just had this nagging fear that the 2nd line was going to be faint, but it turned out that the control line was much fainter than the pregnancy line. I know that in reality a HPT is not going to let me know if I'm going to miscarry, but it is reassuring to see dark lines.

[paisley]

Just sneaking in with lots of love for my former DDC and TTC buddies and sticky vibes for you all! :dust

I was going to mention the same beta site as Erica did too (although it's actually www.betabase.info instead of .com - gets me every time). It was by far the best site I came across in my days of obsessively tracking my hCG values. Just a heads up that some of the features don't work in Firefox but are fine in IE.

I wish all of you all the best in your journeys! Being pregnant again after knowing what could go wrong and knowing that it has happened to you before is a hard thing to deal with at times. Try to breathe through the hard moments, think positive thoughts and enjoy what you do have right now. Easier said than done of course, but it's a good starting place.

Ok back to silently lurking now. :bolt

[chrissy]

:love Paisley.

[chrissy]

oh my gosh, i feel like i can finally catch my breath today. i had been feeling really confident the past couple of days and then yesterday i started feeling worried and then today i have been alternating between worry and peace all day. i went for my third beta and it was 626, so now i feel calm again. oh i hope this feeling lasts. the nurse said since my numbers were doing so great that it was up to me whether i did another blood draw. i told her i'd skip it then since i think waiting for the results was seriously making me stress. so i'm scheduled for an u/s a week from friday. i know i'll be a wreck then, but hopefully i'll be able to keep it together until then.

how are you mamas holding up?

[Willzmama]

Chrissy, we are on the same schedule, I think! I had my 3rd beta today: 852. And at the place I'm going, they don't usually do more than 2 beta checks, and I've had 3 now. I thought of arguing for more, but I can live without it, I think. So next for me is an u/s on the 25th! I'll be just shy of 6 weeks then. So my goal is to just chill until then, try to stay calm and take it easy. HA! We're putting our house on the market tomorrow and our first open house is Sunday. At least I'll have something else to occupy my mind!

Paisley, thanks for your kind words!

[Debstmomy]

Any ideas on how to stop being a tp checker?? I swear, I am a slave to it. Man, my brain does crazy things. Am I the only one???

[UrbanEarthMom]

I'm new to this forum - I can't bring myself to change my signature yet.

I've had two miscarriages in the last year - the last one was a molar pregnancy.

I'm happy one minute and anxious the next. Everytime I go to the bathroom I'm wondering what I'll see.

Wishing the best for all of us.

Mary

[RobynFSU]

I would like to join you ladies. I had a loss last month the was difficult to deal with. It was very early, but just long enough for me to get excited and attached. It makes it harder this time to let myself be excited, but it feels different this time around. I am keeping positive and anxiously awaiting results from the blood draw I had done today.

[EricaE]

chrissy - congrats on your wonderful beta numbers!!! :thumb

Willzmama - your numbers are looking great, too! Good luck at your open house. :)

Debstmomy - I am soooo guilty of being a TP checker. Not only do I wipe and then scruntize the paper, I actually stick part of the TP up inside me, then scruntize that. :o I'm just waiting to see red... It's horribly stressful, isn't it?!

UrbanEarthMom - Welcome!! I'm sorry to hear about your previous losses, and I'm definently hoping that this pregnancy will have a happy outcome for you. I totally know what you mean about being happy one minute and then anxious the next. I feel like I'm manic depressive - one top of the world part of the time, and then thinking nothing but doom and gloom the other part.

RobynSFU - Good luck on your beta!! Keep us updated.

[EricaE]

I have my first ultrasound appointment tomorrow and I'm scared to death. I'm seriously stressed out, which I know isn't good for me, but I can't help it. I'm just soooo scared of bad news. :(

[chrissy]

Welcome Robyn and Mary!

Cristina, I am tp checker as well. I don't think there's a way around it, unfortunately.

Erica, I posted on your thread but I'll tell you here too that I am praying for you and your little baby this morning. :1praying:

[Willzmama]

Any ideas on how to stop being a tp checker?? I swear, I am a slave to it. Man, my brain does crazy things. Am I the only one???

I'm right there with ya! Argh!

I've got a cold, too. My last pregnancy, I had the WORST upper respiratory infection. I swear, I was sick the WHOLE 8 weeks before my m/c. I took a course of amoxicillin and it did nothing. All I could do was suffer and try to rest, with a 3 year old. It SUCKED! I think I'm going to seclude myself this fall or go around with hand sanitizer all the time. :sneeze:

[RobynFSU]

So my beta was 188 for 17 dpo. I was also excited to find out my proges was 21 which with my dd nursing as much as she has been in the past weeks with eyeteeth and molars coming in, I'm taking this as a sign that this pregnancy is going to stick. Of course the nurse on the phone told me that I needed to wean her immediately! :irked: I told her that was for my family to decide. Geesh!!

Going for another draw tom to be sure it's doubling.

[Willzmama]

Of course the nurse on the phone told me that I needed to wean her immediately! :irked: I told her that was for my family to decide. Geesh!!

That is SO ANNOYING!

DS is still nursing, too. Only twice/day. After my 2 m/cs I did worry that BF had something to do with it. But no one really knows! (Have you read Adventures in Tandem Nursing by Hilary Flower?) I'm on progesterone this time around. I'm just going with the flow.

[aran]

Hi all. I have been super busy and then traveling so I was not keeping up with the thread for a while. How is everyone doing? How are people's betas and ultrasounds and tp checking???

I felt so good all weekend that dh and I started seriously worrying that I was losing this one. (That was the biggest tip-off when I m/c... I felt too "good.") I then had a very vivid and realistic m/c dream, and when I woke up, I was totally convinced it happened and I wasn't pg anymore. I was so sad.

Then I realized that I have not yet really mentally committed to this pg. When I was last pg, I immediately started sitting on the birth ball, getting chiro work, reading birth stories, and getting in gear to prepare better than last time, when I had ds (I am trying for a VBAC). But I haven't done any of that for this pg. In fact I keep almost doing pregnancy "no-nos" like taking a hot bath, eating those cheeses I am supposed to avoid. Something is not letting me mentaly commit. That's just not right. I shouldn't shirk my responsibility to dc#2 just to try to avoid some potential emotional pain if things go badly again. Of course I was not doing it intentionally, but now I am intentionally making an effort to be a more committed preggo.

Anyhow... thanks for giving me place to vent.

I am still swamped with IRL things to do, so I have to log off of MDC for two more days till the worst of my deadlines have passed :(

[Lizzo]

Just saying hi! I am really happy ro be here!!

[veganbaby]

I would like to post. This is the first time I am posting about my pregnancy. I am about almost 5 weeks along. I had an early miscarriage at around 4 weeks. I keep checking for spotting and worry about every twinge.

[Debstmomy]

Aran, I think that avoiding bonding during a PAL is normal. I know for one, I did it with my last pg. I just could not go there, it is self preservation. Do not feel bad.
This time, I am working on bonding. I feel very happy & content & perhaps that is naive of me, but I feel pretty confident about this pg. I did not have that the last 2 times. (Yes, with Alexa I had many fears, all of which came to be.) So this is different for me this time.
Anyway, everyone is different & PAL is VERY different. You are not alone in your thoughts at all. :hug

[Willzmama]

Glad MDC is back up! Hope you are all doing okay!

Aran, I agree with the pp - PAL is different. I feel somewhat ambivalent about this one, myself.

:( I was weepy yesterday. (Could it be preg hormones?) I just felt sorry for DS, that he's an only child and I'm his only playmate some days and I'm not always in the mood to play. I was feeling ill - I've had headaches for the past 4 days, off and on, and chest congestion. Still on the progesterone. Oh, and I got a yeast infection. :irked:

I'm 5 wks today. Having an u/s on Monday. I'm nervous but I swear nothing will surprise me this time.

[Lizzo]

Oh.My.goddess!!!
After a horrible dream last night...I caved and got my HCG done today.
IT WAS 10285!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You could knock me over with a feather! And the nurse was confused too!
When I called she was like "Are we watching this go up or down?" And I was like "Welllllll...it's supposed to be going down,but somehting tells me it's gone up"
And oh man has it!!!! :dizzy:

[UrbanEarthMom]

:( I was weepy yesterday. (Could it be preg hormones?)


I felt weepy today too - I was overtired - I have this morning insomnia during pregnancies - I wake up at 4AM and can't get back to sleep. When I get tired I'm susceptible to negative feelings. I was thinking today whether I'm really "ready" for another baby since I'm still grieving over the two losses. I've been pregnant three times this past year. Evn though I'm generally excited about the baby.

Is it realistic to be completely "over" something before becoming pregnant again?

[chrissy]

Lizzo, that is wonderful!! i am so happy for you mama!

Mary, i don't think you ever get over losing a baby.

Welcome C! I think I know you from the September mamas (2004), right?

Robyn, how did your repeat beta go? i hope it was great!

Erica, weren't you having another u/s today? i've been thinking of you all day and looking forward to reading an update from you.

Aran, i think it is totally normal to keep yourself a little bit detached with subsequent pregnancies. :hug i think it is great that you are making an effort to bond though. i am trying my hardest to do the same. i want to love this baby as long as i can.

As for me, I'm just chugging along. I have an u/s on Friday. I feel pretty positive coupled with twangs of complete panic. I know I will be a mess going in to it. I seriously look pregnant though. I guess after 2 babies and 2 really recent m/c my body just knows what's in store. :lol

Well, it's bedtime for littles here so i'd better go help.

[Lizzo]

Ok...the OB who did my HCGs wanted me to get an ultrasound tommorow b/c they said with my HCG the way it went...it could be an ectopic pregnancy. Now, I am a midwifery apprentice, so I felt like that was wrong. I asked why and even they said it probably is not ectopic. And I talked with my midwife and she said that is crazy and a U/s this early is not a good idea....
So I have decided to not do it. But it made me all nervous and worked up a bit. I am so sure all is well...but I hate this BS. I knew I shouldn't have gotten my HCG done! :dizzy:

[chrissy]

oh mamas, i am so so so very scared right now. i had an u/s this morning. i am 5w4d and i was really really really hoping we'd see my little baby, but we didn't. we saw the gestational sac and the yolk sac but no fetal pole. the u/s tech and the ob said this is totally fine and right on track, but it just doesn't feel right to me. :( and worst of all, i've been crampy all morning. at first i thought it was b/c i was nervous b/c of the upcoming u/s but now it won't go away. argh. i hate this.

[aran]

nak

chrissy - i'm sorry you are on a rollercoaser ride right now. try to keep the dread from taking over... maybe remind yourself that it won't do any good to fret. maybe try to focus on the ob saying it looks just fine.

sending you vibes for :sticky

[Willzmama]

Hang in there, Chrissy! If they said you are right on track - ! What's the next step for you?

I am right behind you, have an u/s Monday and I'm trying to have some optimism. But I barely have any preg symptoms. Granted, I am a mere 5w3days...

Lizzo - Good for you for saying no to the u/s if it's too early to be helpful to you anyway.

[chrissy]

thanks guys. i am feeling much better today. i had acupuncture this morning and my acupuncturist said she really thinks everything is going to be okay and my pulse and everything is great. i am thinking i am going to skip the follow up u/s and head straight on to care with my midwife.

okay, i have to go but just wanted to update you all.

willzmama, i think it is totally 100% normal to not have any symptoms at 5w3d.

[ewins24]

I'm chiming in now too. I'm a bit scared to do so but I'm walking out on faith that all will be ok this time. I have 2 wonderful dd's my oldest is 12 (13 in Nov :dropjaw and a dd who is 3 (4 in Oct). I've had 7 m/c's thats the cause for the being scared! I've had 3 hcg drawls 1st one was 14,400 2nd set didn't double like they wanted but went up too 20,222 so we did a third which was 36,400.

We have had u/s and we saw a sac, yolk sac and a fetal pole. That was last week I go in for another u/s on Monday to check where I am now.

I think I'm due around May 15th but I'm an "early" one. My dd's were both born early 6weeks and 3 1/2 weeks so I'll probablly go early this time too. I just pray that we get there and get to bring home a screaming baby. (My great Grandmother told me a screaming baby is a healthy baby and thats what you want so thats why I say screaming baby, she had many m/c's too!)

I've also gotten a 36 hr stay in the hospital this time b/c of severe m/s that went to dehydration, which was so not fun!!

Anyway I look forward to getting to know y'all and sharing this time with people who think like I do!

Sorry so long!

[Lizzo]

Hang in there, Chrissy! If they said you are right on track - ! What's the next step for you?

I am right behind you, have an u/s Monday and I'm trying to have some optimism. But I barely have any preg symptoms. Granted, I am a mere 5w3days...

Lizzo - Good for you for saying no to the u/s if it's too early to be helpful to you anyway.

Oh I am so lame mama!!! I CAVED! And went!!!! And the U/S tech was like "You were right...this is stupid to have one now b/c at 5 weeks 4 days (I ACTUALLY was 5 weeks 2 days, but you know their stupid pregnancy DD calculators...EVERYONE O's at CD 14!) I porbably wont see ANYTHING, certainly not an ectopic!"
BUT...there was something. A little sac with a little yolk. :wink Perfectly perfect and perfectly normal. :love
But of course, they want another in 10 days. HELL NO. And the u/s sound tech was like "Don't. You don't want to and there is no reason to."
BUT there was blood in my uterus. Not a lot and u/s tech siad she doesn't usually tell womyn if there is any. I saw it, it was not a lot. But my risk of m/c is higher. But the u/s tech said that she sees it all the time and it is normal.
I am happy. And so done with these OBs! And I am REALLY readyf or it to be the 2nd trimester...or at least 9 weeks 9I lost my last baby at 8 weeks)

[RobynFSU]

I'm having an u/s done at my 1st mw visit Thursday. I'll be 6w 5d so I'm hoping to see a heartbeat. Never went for the repeat beta. They wanted me to come in and discuss weaning my dd to protect this preg :irked: since I disagreed with the nurse on the phone (NOT EVER going back to that practice) so I skipped out and called my new mw instead.

[NocturnalDaze]

Hi everyone! This is my first post about my pregnancy. I hope I'm not jinxing myself. I had a m/c at 12 weeks at the beginning of June. So, now I have to get through the whole first trimester before I can even begin to feel safe. I have a feeling that I still won't feel comfortable until I'm actually holding a newborn in my arms.

The worst part of all is having to repeat the 1st trimester all over again. *sigh* I have become a crazed lunatic in the last week. I think I need to move to a hotel for the next 7 weeks:innocent

[Willzmama]

I hear you, Kim, about repeating the first weeks again. This is my 4th time being newly pregnant - and it shows! :lol I never lost the 20 lbs. from my 2 m/cs in the past year. My poor body doesn't know what the heck is going on. I attempted to go to Weight Watchers over the summer and I just wasn't there, KWIM? I want to be pregnant and have another baby! I don't want to keep track of friggin' POINTS!

Lizzo, that's pretty funny that you ended up getting the U/S. Glad it was reassuring for you. Me, I want INFO. If this one isn't happening, I want to know ASAP. No more wasted weeks believing I'm having a baby if it ain't happenin'. BTDT! Twice! I realize it might be too early tomorrow to see much in the u/s but I'll take what I can get.

Wow, ewins24, you've gotten dehydrated already this time around? You poor thing!

Chrissy, what a great idea to get acupuncture.

[momz3]

Hey there. I'm in Shantell, mom of 3. We just had our daughter in May who was stillborn to uterine rupture and placenta abruption. She was a beautiful little angel at 39 weeks, 7 lbs 11 oz and a FULL head of curly hair. While we were crying and mourning her, she looked so peaceful, like she was sleeping. I talked to her, told her how beautiful she was and how much we'd miss her. She stayed in our room for a few hours and then we turned her over to the funeral home who would help us w/our services.
Do to a small pelvis, I've had 3 c sections. That significantly increases my chances for rupture and abruption. In rage , when we found out she passed away, I told the attending physician I wanted my tubes tied. I didn't know what I was saying, of course. I signed the consent and went in for my c section. I was given a general anesthetic (to help with the grief) but when they pulled her out, I was wide awake. No way was I going to sleep through seeing her for the first time. She was so beautiful..so sweet...I passed out again...and woke up in recovery. My husband was there...and told me the docs couldn't tie my tubes because I had a rupture and they were running around like chickens with their heads cut off trying to figure out whether to give me a hysterectomy or to save it. He, the attending doc (mine was on vacation) decided I was too young to let this happen, and saved it. A few hrs later, he came in, told me about what he found (not gonna go into much detail because its a bit hard) ...she did indeed suffocate from lack of oxygen. He also apologized for not being able to tie my tubes...and all I could do is cry, and say "Thank you."
She had a beautiful memorial service. We were very fortunate as the military paid for her services. My husbands commander, 1st sgt and staff sgt came to see me in the hospital to deliver flowers (from them each) and attended the service... I wasn't able to be there, because I was still hospitalized for unexplained fever and chills. (probably some sort of infection).
We miss her so much. We go out to visit her often and talk to her. She's in "Baby Land" (thats what they call it for toddlers and babies who are buried there) and it is SO beautiful. We are now awaiting her headstone and we will be complete.
We love her and miss her so much. And we Thank God each and ever day for atleast allowing her to be a part of our lives.We were able to feel her every kick...she even played with DH a few times...I got to feel her hiccups..we were lucky to be able to be with her for 9 months. We don't know why babies get taken away from us, we can't explain it, but now, they hurt no more and is safe from all harm. Now we are pregnant with #4. I know this baby is a gift from her and God...I know she wanted a little brother or sister. I feel her here with me, telling me everything will be fine. I know that she will be with me when I give birth. It will be a very emotional, sad BUT happy time and I am looking forward to it.
Thank you for letting me share my story and I hope to meet great women in here.

:candleAlexis Raquel:candle

[aran]

Oh Shantell! :crying :crying :crying I am so sorry that happened to you and your family and your sweet little girl. I can't imagine how hard that must have been, and still is. I so hope that your current pregnancy goes perfectly.

:candle

[chrissy]

oh Shantell, huge :hug to you mama. i am so sorry that alexis didn't get to stay here on earth with you but i know that you are right that she is with you all the time.
:candle alexis raquel

[Debstmomy]

Shantell, I wanted to welcome you to this group. What a beautiful story of your baby Alexis is. She is surrounded by love, that is for sure. I too am a Mama of a full term SB baby girl, named Alexa. Same intitial for the middle name too! Such coincidences. I am also due 5/07. Welcome to this group, we will walk this journey together.

[UrbanEarthMom]

Shantell,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss you experienced. What a terrible tragedy.

Having another baby is a tremendous leap of faith for you in particular. I admire your courage.

Wishing you well,
Mary

[Willzmama]

:grouphug to you, Shantell. Welcome to our PALS thread!

[Willzmama]

Over the weekend I had a mental conversation with this baby. I was asking it to give our family a chance. I told it about the great older brother it will have, that its mom and dad are great, although the rest of the relatives are a mixed bag... :o

I felt like I needed to ask it to stay with us. Of course last night I was mentally going over what I will do if my u/s on Thursday is bad news, picturing calling the OB who did my last D&C, going through all that again. It's so hard to balance being optimistic with trying to prepare myself for the worst.

How are you all doing?

[NocturnalDaze]

So, how's everyone doing? I'm almost at 8 weeks now so I've got atleast another 6 to go before I can start feeling good. I had an awful nightmare the other night that I m/c-ed again. I did feel good to wake up and realize it wasn't real though!

[UrbanEarthMom]

Hi Kim,

I had a miscarriage dream recently too - it seemed so real when I woke up I had to practically check.

I've had two miscarriages - I generally haven't blamed myself but I do wonder if stress has played a part. So when I get stressed I stress out even more because I'm stressed - crazy isn't it?

I am getting an nine week US on Monday - hopefully it will be good news.

Wishing you well.

Mary

[wanderinggypsy]

I"m actually due April 25 but I just know that this baby like my other two will come late, so it will be May. The very cycle before we concieved this baby I had a miscarriage. It traumatized me and for the first 10 weeks of this pregnancy I was compulsively going to the washroom to check for bleeding. I still check every now and then, even though I know everything is fine. (I can even feel a bit of movement now, and we've heard the heartbeat twice).

It's hard adjusting, but I think you just have to stay positive. It sounds cliche, but I think it's true. Good luck to everybody.

[Willzmama]

Hi all!
I'm glad this thread got bumped up. I'm hanging in there. I've had two u/s and we've seen the heartbeat. I was graduated from the repro clinic where I had a slew of tests done over the summer. So I'm supposed to see my midwife tomorrow and hopefully get another u/s to make sure I've successfully passed my 8w m/c hurtle. I definitely have some preg symptoms but I've been fooled before so I'm totally in need of some reassurance. :nut

:hug to you all.