lines gone :(

[amandajf]

although i'd only held it for 2-2.5 hours (had super faint lines thurs/friday after holding it 4 hours) my lines are much lighter. i'm still cramping, still bleeding but am taking lobelia and false unicorn root tinctures very regularly.

dh and i are so excited about having our last baby. i'm pretty miffed at the thought of the lil bugger "leaving". i'm hoping he/she does what they're told and stays put, but im nervous as heck.

:gloomy:

[Goldiemom]

Oh Mama! I hope that everything turns out as you want! You will be in my thoughts and prayers. *~*~sticky vibes~*~* :Hug

[chrissy]

:1praying: for you and sending sticky baby thoughts your way.

[WendyC]

:hug: Oh mama - I hope it works out, I am so sorry.

[Slingin'Momto4]

:hug I am sorry :(

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers...

[chrissy]

amanda,
how are you doing today?

[clavicula]

(((hugs))), mama! :(

[EricaE]

I'm thinking of you, and hoping that you're doing okay. Keep us posted. :Hug

[amandajf]

i had a sono and blood work today. preliminary sono report is that i m/c. they didn't see anything in there. but i also don't recall anything coming out, so who knows?

either way the lines are going to be going away completely.

thanks for your well wishes, y'all. it was nice having this sisterhood for the last few days.

[lolalola]

:Hug
I am very sorry for your loss.

[gretasmommy]

So sorry for your loss.:candle

[momof421]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[Tummy]

I still love you AuntieAm!!!
:hug

[amandajf]

i had this long rambling post in response, but realized it was merely the written, chaotic thoughts all mommas feel/think when this happens. we've all seen it before. all i can say at this point is that i owe my good friend, Tummy, a big apology for not being more sympathetic when she lost Grail last year. DH is taking it harder than I am. The kids are being amazingly sweet.

tonight i intend to indulge in some wine and take my blue cohosh and dong quai to help heal my uterus as much as possible to get this hemorrhaging under better control.
I'm very appreciative to you guys. it means alot to have other mommas like you guys around. enjoy your may babies! or aprils or junes for those of you whose babies decide they don't like schedules!

[Tummy]

:crying

Amanda, do you know that is the very first time in a year that you have actually said (typed) his name???
Refered to him as an actual being and not just a clump of cells so to speak.
Thank you
I love you girl!
Casey