bjunkie
12-05-2006, 06:54 AM
Over the last week my tests have become faint (like the ones that are very early). Lots of chemical pgs (hate that term, reminds me of things like "failure to progress in labor", or a "irratible uterus" !) over the last several years, as in my 40's and unfortunately that is a reality with older eggs. I wasn't ttc nor doing anything to avoid, but have been toughened up over the years (at least in my late 30's and early 40's) just know that it is part of biology. I kinda feel like I had my day. Tons and tons of experiences of motherhood and parenting that I cherish.
Fast as my syptoms came, they have gone now.... just waiting for my hormones to come down to lower level to start to bleed. Hcg coming down so early, that should be over the next couple of weeks thankfully, rather than like the last which was over 11wks before mc'd. With the last, All those betas, inconclusive US's etc., and I knew in my heart already (compared to all the continuing pgs). A friend recently said to me, "you will know, just listen, and trust your intuition". Your body will tell you this. Have to admit how she was right...
I have been blessed beyond my dreams, of a family spanning 25yrs..... Have a two yr old (who is still nursing too ; ) and had over 40(!) and have had children nurse into "preschoolhood", had a great HBAC, helped almost 100 mamas in labor, homeschooled the last several yrs, been married for almost 25 to wonderful partner, etc etc etc..... How could I be sad? I truly have lived I feel. And I do love the wisdom that comes with age too ; ) I don't want to go back....I am not sad really, it would have neat to have a sibling close in age for my 2yr old though. But who knows? If husband and I want to have more, we will look into donor embryos or donor eggs. NOT sure yet though. WE haven't talked seriously about this. Just mentioned that it would be neat to do that.
I hope ALL go on here and have healthy, peaceful, and wonderful pgs and births ; )
I posted in the beg a few times before an official ddc, and I haven't posted lately as it just seems like bad news each time I got a pos that was fainter than the last, but wanted to say goodbye to all....
bjunkie
Fast as my syptoms came, they have gone now.... just waiting for my hormones to come down to lower level to start to bleed. Hcg coming down so early, that should be over the next couple of weeks thankfully, rather than like the last which was over 11wks before mc'd. With the last, All those betas, inconclusive US's etc., and I knew in my heart already (compared to all the continuing pgs). A friend recently said to me, "you will know, just listen, and trust your intuition". Your body will tell you this. Have to admit how she was right...
I have been blessed beyond my dreams, of a family spanning 25yrs..... Have a two yr old (who is still nursing too ; ) and had over 40(!) and have had children nurse into "preschoolhood", had a great HBAC, helped almost 100 mamas in labor, homeschooled the last several yrs, been married for almost 25 to wonderful partner, etc etc etc..... How could I be sad? I truly have lived I feel. And I do love the wisdom that comes with age too ; ) I don't want to go back....I am not sad really, it would have neat to have a sibling close in age for my 2yr old though. But who knows? If husband and I want to have more, we will look into donor embryos or donor eggs. NOT sure yet though. WE haven't talked seriously about this. Just mentioned that it would be neat to do that.
I hope ALL go on here and have healthy, peaceful, and wonderful pgs and births ; )
I posted in the beg a few times before an official ddc, and I haven't posted lately as it just seems like bad news each time I got a pos that was fainter than the last, but wanted to say goodbye to all....
bjunkie