Ok, may I join???

[goosysmom]

It's finally sunk in...against all odds, here I am...5ish weeks pregnant...I believe....haven't had cycles in forever bc of high progesterone so it's a wonder that I am expecting...

I have my first appointment on 1/18 to see how far I am along exactly...but this is my month....

This is a surprise and it's finally starting to sink in...I'm having selfish thoughts though..

I wanted another child since dd was hours old...:lol but after many doc visits and MW visits settled for the fact that dd would be my only one (we don't have $$ for fertility treatments) and thus, got into the mind frame of not wanting to share her and being happy with just her....

Any advice on how to get out of that mind frame???? I sooo want to be happy about this but enjoy dd so much with just us right now......and I am happy, just wish the selfish moment would pass....

CONGRATS TO US ALL!!!!

[naturegirl]

Congratulations to you! And welcome. :)

I wouldn't worry about the "selfish" thoughts. I think you have prepared yourself for a life with your one dd and it will take awhile to imagine a life with two. Even I, who despertely wants another child, have a hard time imagining sharing myself with another. I worry about how that will affect my ds as well as my sanity! I think as the baby(ies) grow and our dc sees and feels that we will all adjust and be happy little families. :love BTW, I don't think it is selfish at all.

[goosysmom]

thanks. you are right, i had prepared myself for her to be my only child....and come to terms with it....then whamo....in a good way but just leaves me feeling up in the air...thanks :D