Kinda guilty

[Apryl Srissa]

We definately wanted a 4th baby, so I am glad that this one is coming. That isn't a problem. But I guess the timing really has me emotionally reeling. I've battled weight issues for years, and have finally been losing, not just talking about it. And of course now can't keep doing that. I didn't realize how much this bothered me, till we went to the mall today. We were waiting for new glasses and wandering a store that we both like. I was near tears over all the clothes that I was so looking forward to being able to finally wear. I don't know if its just the hormones, or what, but this is really bugging me. Maybe I should just give myself some time, it has only been a day, but I feel guilty for feeling that way. And to add to it, my dh had just started a cool tattoo on my back, so now I have an outline of a flower with leaves and two buds, but only the flower is colored. And with nursing, who knows when it will actually look pretty,not like an outline

ok, done whining now I guess, I think I'm going to go read and just ignore the guilt for a while :lol

sorry for the whine ...

[welldone]

I feel for you, Apryl. I have weight issues, too. I've been pregnant or nursing for the past five years, and my body holds/gains weight while I'm in those states.

I'm so very excited to have this baby--(s)he is loved already. But I'm worried about how my body issues will affect my emotions this pregnancy.

The good things: my nutrition and health is all better than it's ever been. We eat whole foods, traditional foods, and avoid eating out. I've slowly switched my health & body care products over to all natural and/or homemade options. All of our cleaning products are natural. Besides my weight, I'm in a really good place, health-wise.

I'm trying really hard to focus on the good, feed myself and my baby well, and embrace over all health and wellness (over pounds). Weight, while important, is only one facet of health.

Now, if I could only stop being tired long enough to walk more...

[Apryl Srissa]

I've also been at this a while. My three year old just weaned a month or so ago, and the little one is just barely starting to sleep.

I think what frustrates me is the changes. I've really been making diet changes, and just don't know how much I can keep. Part of my changes have been in relearning portion sizes, and reasonable amounts/things to eat. But doing that I track calories, and don't want to restrict them now of course. I do eat pretty healthy, and we have made smaller versions of the changes you mentioned, which I do feel really good about. I think I probably feel better after I call my midwife. I will feel better if I can still track my foods, but want to know what number of calories to never go under, to be sure that I don't lose weight. And if I can keep excersing the way I've been doing. I have found a yoga routine that really works me and I love it, but its pretty strenous. I guess what it comes down to is just the unknown, when I talk to them and know how much has to change, I will be better I never do well with unknowns.

What I am thinking is that if I can still change the quality of my foods, and eat healthy portions (and not just cuz I'm bored or whatever) and excersize, it will be ok not to lose, becuase my over all body will be so much healtier. So then loosing it will be much easier, all those things will already be habbit. But I'm just still in shock a bit, so it seems to be hitting all at once.

But we are definately glad he or she is coming. Just at this point it seems so unreal, that the scarier parts are really popping out


But good part is that I will have years to go after this little one arrives to get into my perfect health. That came to me a bit ago, that slowing down the getting healthy path doesn't mean its stopping, nor does it have a deadline. So I'm feeling a bit better (though I don't think I'm taking these hormones back to the mall soon lol)

[Kontessa]

Your not alone. I just got down to 190 and this is a big deal for me. I wanted to start a real strict diet with a yoga friend of mine but now I can not and I am sad about it. I am excited and happy about baby but feeling some sorrow for the body I was aiming for and was finally making my way too. I had been mid 200s for so long now and am afraid of going back up there because of another baby.

I am not tiny though, and I can eat healthy and walk and the weight can still come off, it did once before with a different pregnancy and that little one is perfect, chunky little man actually. So I have hope I will not blow up.

Eating small meals throughout the day might actually help. I am trying not to lose hope. There is a balance and I need to find it. I know that after the first trimester I can start pregy yoga classes and I so look forward to them and being flexable and having energy!

Hope.

Blessings,
Kimmy

[Bonawich]

I am also worried about gaining weight. I managed to start this pregnancy 20 pounds less than I started with my last one, and about 17 pounds over a weight I would love to get to! I really want to only gain 25 pounds, but the all-day sickness has already kicked in and the only thing that works is eating. Plus, being tired, I just don't feel like exercising. Now, if I could only get my body to crave healthy things, maybe it would be okay ;)