So friggin angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Carlito's_wife]

I have never been so angry and frusterated!!!!:angry My appointment isn't until next week and at this point I don't know if anything is even going on inside of me. I spend my entire day worrying and being angry. I have absolutely no signs of pregnancy. NOT ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! With my two babies I deff remeber being sick. With the MC of course I never had any symptoms. So is it safe to friggin say this one is going to end in MC???

OMG I am so mad right now. How could it be so hard to conceive? :guilty And then once you finally do you have to live in fear that the child will never even be born.

I am really wishing I hadn't done this. I am tired of crying, begging, praying, feeling sad, felling confused.

How could it be so hard to get pregnant and stay that way? :bawl

I am living in my own hell right now.

[mama_nym]

:Hug I wish there was something I could say to make things all better - but there isn't. I hope you are able to find peace and confidence in your body and your baby during this pregnancy and that you have a healthy 9 months!!!

I was in shoes similar to your own 9 years ago ... I had a m/c (after 18 months of ttc) and then got pg 3 weeks later. I had no symptoms when pg w/ the baby I miscarried and none with my 8.5 year old. I didn't even show until I was 7.5 months pregnant!!! I worried every single day until my belly popped (overnight- it was amazing!) and then every day after that if I didn't feel movement often enough. And then still while giving birth. It was horrible to be so worried and anxious and not be able to celebrate the pregnancy like I wanted to.

[babygrant]

:hug to you mama.

If this is any comfort, my 1st son I was sicker than a dog. I puked for like...5 months every single day. It was horrible. With my 2nd son I had about 1/2 hour of nausea after I got the positive, and that was it. No sore boobs, no nausea, no vomitting, no food aversions, no aches or pains. NOTHING!

[noordinaryspider]

:hug

I see that your other children are older. So are mine. What has stuck in my memory is my horrible first trimester with Phoenix where I lost so much weight because all I seem to have been able to manage to do was to sleep and literally crawl up to the bathroom to puke.

I have some vague recollection that it got easier with each pregnancy. I know I was able to hold a full-time job that required some physical labour with dd and I was able to be a full-time mom to a toddler with ds. This seems to be a very mellow pregnancy so far and some obvious sympoms I ALWAYS get are missing, but I figure that all I can do is hope for the best and enjoy the time I have with this little one just in case that time turns out to be much, much shorter than it should be.

[Mama2-4]

I feel for you also. It is hard to play the waiting game. I am in the same boat as you, and do not really have any symptoms other than feeling a little more tired and missing my period. I have been thinking back to my other pregnancies and I did not really feel symptomatic for another few weeks. I know it is easier said than done, but you really need to try to relax. Getting upset is certainly not going to do you or the baby growing inside of you any good. I think if your MD/CNM felt there was reason to worry they would have gotten you in for an appointment. I am not trying to be preachy, I just think at this point you really need to just enjoy being pregnant and not feeling icky!
:hug
Andrea

PS I see you are in NY, where in NY are you?

[LawrenceDoula]

Sorry to jump in on this thread (I'm in my 2ww and hoping to be joining a DDC soon), but everything I read says that you shouldn't really experience many symptoms until 6 weeks or so, and even then everyone is different. I know many women have symptoms before they are 'supposed' to, but every website says that it doesn't hit until later. Whether it's true or not is simply up to you I guess!

For what it's worth, I didn't know I was pregnany until I was 6 weeks along because I had no symptoms. Once 6 weeks hit I was SO tired, but never felt sick.

Right now, all you can do is take care of yourself, physically and emotionally. Maybe you need to get away and relax, if it's possible! Get a hotel room for yourself and do nothing but take a bubble bath and watch a movie!!

Good luck!

[suzywan]

FWIW, only about 50% of pregnant women experience morning sickness in any given pregnancy. I don't have it - I hit 6 weeks tomorrow.

:Hug

[flapjack]

Carlitoswife, you're 5 days and a bit, right? What I was planning on doing this time last week was hanging in there until 6 weeks by ovulation (i.e. tomorrow), sticking a pin in my finger and then ringing the doctor hysterically screaming that I saw bright red blood and I needed a scan right now. Now, of course, the m/s has kicked in with a vengeance and I look five months pregnant.
If you hang in there until next week, you know that the chances are good that you're going to see a heartbeat on a transvaginal scan. Right now, you might- or you might not, but still be pregnant with a baby that's still growing, and be stuck in limbo for another week not knowing.
It seems to me, though, that this crucial week where that tiny little heart starts beating is a critical point emotionally for a mother and hormonally, something seems to trigger the "next wave" of pregnancy symptoms. Take things easy on yourself- both you and bean are pretty vulnerable right now. :hug

[mom3b1?]

I do know how stressful this is. It was a long hard road with many miscarriages, fertility treatments, and loads of stress before I got the three boys I've got.

With all three of their pregnancies the symptoms were minimal in the beginning and I found it very frustrating. Eventually small weird things started happening, but my pregnancies were never strongly symptomatic.

Hang in there!

Kiley

[LoveChild421]

:hug This pregnancy feels a lot more like my first pregnancy which ended in miscarriage than my son's. With my son I also got really upset with the Dr.s because they refused to see me even though I was spotting until I got my insurance card. But his pregnancy worked out just fine. I stressed out so much that I would miscarry him but here he is. I've been doing a lot of praying and meditating this time and I'm really at peace with whatever happens. Sometimes when things are not at all in our control we have to really go out on a limb and let go and have faith. Stress is the worst thing for a pregnancy. Breathe and visualize everything working out just fine.

[ChristyM26]

I'm not in your ddc (I'm a few months ahead of y'all) but I wanted to tell you guys without symptoms not to worry. I'm carrying twins and have yet to have a symptom except for peeing and eating (heck, if I hadn't seen them at 8 weeks, I doubt I would have believed it). And at 5 weeks, I didn't have either of those symptoms. In fact, I really didn't even believe I was pregnant until about a month ago when my belly popped. I know it's hard, but try not to worry! Things will probably be fine.